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Read. Time..................2:21
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Here I include my background as well as my thought process that helped me overcome my depression.
Before I begin I would like to thank Chris for creating GLL and being the brother I needed my whole life.
My issues stem from my childhood, and my relationship with money, status and sex. I got used for sex and had a consensual sexual partner at the age of 5. It affected how I thought about life for years to come. On this day I'm 23 years old and my emptiness is gone; I have found purpose in life. I overcame depression when I used a psychedelic and phenibut in combination. While experiencing what psychonauts call ego death I asked myself how to be a great parent. Rather what I wished my parents taught me as a child. What I dislike about growing up as child is that we look up to adults for guidance and explanations. We need to know why anything is the way it is, everything needs to make sense. In reflection I realize adults are just larger more experienced children.
I see our world currently as many people with various insecurities. We distract ourselves from these insecurities with activities. These include entertainment like TV, food, sex, video games, etc. Now, I don't think there is anything wrong with distractions. That is how we pass the time, and we all have time. What is bad about insecurities is they create anxiety for some people. It is this lack of comfort (anxiety) that causes people to harm others. When we think about what creates comfort we do whatever we can to get it.
Everyone wants to feel comfortable - it is the reason we spend money on anything. Money allows us to create comfort. This is why all sales come from emotion. I spent years playing video games to pass the time and distract myself. This taught me how video games work, and to this day I use the relocatable skills in real life (not a total loss). Now days I enjoy being intimate with my closest friends and my significant other.
I find society to be negative on average. People are afraid to see others succeed because of their insecurities. The Germans called this schadenfreude, a pleasure felt by others misfortunes. People seem to hide their true feelings. This is society imposing emotional expectations scaring people from sharing. I believe mainstream religions have a respectable moral compass. The stories they share draw people to them when it feels right (ethogenic). Their adoption keeps people together when we are unsure that we trust each other.
My cure to depression is my new found faith in humanity. In this moment I feel immense joy and fulfillment whenever I help another human. I use the word "human" because I see everyone as intelligent animals. They interact with the world we create. To gain the leverage required to let them experience whatever they wish. I wish to create opportunities for the people of this world and give them fulfillment and comfort.
It is the job of a parent to prepare their children for life in this world. I believe this writing to be the preparation I needed. I accept these truths and I found love in life. This love is acceptance of another person and everything they represent. Their past, present and future. Once I accepted love. I achieved self-actualization as explained in Maslow's Hierarchy of needs. I hope everyone achieves this need someday. It creates a wonderful life.
Read. Time..................2:21
Paragraphs......................6
Sentences......................49
Words...........................586
Here I include my background as well as my thought process that helped me overcome my depression.
Before I begin I would like to thank Chris for creating GLL and being the brother I needed my whole life.
My issues stem from my childhood, and my relationship with money, status and sex. I got used for sex and had a consensual sexual partner at the age of 5. It affected how I thought about life for years to come. On this day I'm 23 years old and my emptiness is gone; I have found purpose in life. I overcame depression when I used a psychedelic and phenibut in combination. While experiencing what psychonauts call ego death I asked myself how to be a great parent. Rather what I wished my parents taught me as a child. What I dislike about growing up as child is that we look up to adults for guidance and explanations. We need to know why anything is the way it is, everything needs to make sense. In reflection I realize adults are just larger more experienced children.
I see our world currently as many people with various insecurities. We distract ourselves from these insecurities with activities. These include entertainment like TV, food, sex, video games, etc. Now, I don't think there is anything wrong with distractions. That is how we pass the time, and we all have time. What is bad about insecurities is they create anxiety for some people. It is this lack of comfort (anxiety) that causes people to harm others. When we think about what creates comfort we do whatever we can to get it.
Everyone wants to feel comfortable - it is the reason we spend money on anything. Money allows us to create comfort. This is why all sales come from emotion. I spent years playing video games to pass the time and distract myself. This taught me how video games work, and to this day I use the relocatable skills in real life (not a total loss). Now days I enjoy being intimate with my closest friends and my significant other.
I find society to be negative on average. People are afraid to see others succeed because of their insecurities. The Germans called this schadenfreude, a pleasure felt by others misfortunes. People seem to hide their true feelings. This is society imposing emotional expectations scaring people from sharing. I believe mainstream religions have a respectable moral compass. The stories they share draw people to them when it feels right (ethogenic). Their adoption keeps people together when we are unsure that we trust each other.
My cure to depression is my new found faith in humanity. In this moment I feel immense joy and fulfillment whenever I help another human. I use the word "human" because I see everyone as intelligent animals. They interact with the world we create. To gain the leverage required to let them experience whatever they wish. I wish to create opportunities for the people of this world and give them fulfillment and comfort.
It is the job of a parent to prepare their children for life in this world. I believe this writing to be the preparation I needed. I accept these truths and I found love in life. This love is acceptance of another person and everything they represent. Their past, present and future. Once I accepted love. I achieved self-actualization as explained in Maslow's Hierarchy of needs. I hope everyone achieves this need someday. It creates a wonderful life.
