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Found this website in 2013 - too scared to post until now. - by: Play_time_is_over

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* Where you are from?

Australia

* How old are you?

25

* What are your goals?

I want to be a fucking man. This includes, beating AA and starting a business (or keep starting businesses until they are successful).

Also I want to get fit. I mean I know I will get fit just from going to the dojo, but I want bigger arms - gym 3-4 times a week consistently. Not a monster or anything like that. I've had a ripped body in the past and I know first hand it does nothing for you if you have approach anxiety.

* If you could accomplish ONLY ONE THING in the next 12 months. What would it be?

Tied between building a good prototype to secure funding for my project - and beating AA. Although I think both are related to the same problem. The first goal is more of a hit and miss, so I will say if anything could possibly happen in the next 12 months, including making a million bucks, I want to beat AA

* How long have you been reading self-improvement stuff? Pickup/dating material?

Since 2014 when I found r/theredpill

* What are you main blockages?

Just general Social Anxiety (equally scared to talk to men and women) Grew up as a short ginger, lots of bullying and shit. I'm 6'4" now so at least I have that going for me - also I lived at a martial arts dojo which "toughened me up" a lil bit but I'm still a major bitch.

* What's your experience level, more importantly- what's your dating/sex life been like over the past few years?

I've had sex with 4 women since I was 19. First 2 I was before TRP and just you know randomly bumping into girls type stuff. The 3rd was a ONS I picked up from a club and was a hot blonde way out of my league - for some reason I man the fucked up and killed it that night, but haven't been able to since (i was also smashed). The 4th was a girl at uni who would then become my GF for 2 years and basically kill any and all momentum I had.

+ Where'd you hear/find GoodLookingLoser.com?

Reddit.com! Someone posted a video of Chris picking up a girl on the street. Everyone in the comments was saying "OMG He's sexually harrassing her!" "Omg if he did this to me I'd call the cops!" "Wow what a rapist pig" and the whole time I was nodding my head in agreement looking at chris talk to this tiny little girl going "what the fuck does he think he's doing".

Then I saw the end of the video. THIS CHICK GOT ON HIS CAR and presumably they fucked. Well reddit was still raging but I was left with my mouth wide open - everything I thought about women just got blow the fuck out.

A bit about me:

Younger Years - Beta dad, super feminist mum. Depressed, Suicidal - would be kissless virgin if a 4/10 indian girl didn't take interest in me when I was 19.
Kicked out of home at 21... you know verge of suicide, like I think some guys who come here as newbies are - addicted to video games, porn reddit yadda yadda.

21 Family friend invites me to move to new city. He is a great guy - he is "somewhat alpha" having slept with 28 women before his wife but his friends are properly "alpha" sleeping with 100+ women before the internet was even invented. He tells me to start training at a martial arts dojo.

That's all I do for 9 months, and I met some chick on reddit and we dated for a few months.

22 My sensei at the dojo asks me to move in. I live at the dojo for 12 months and start going to uni. I get shredder brah and top my class at uni, and almost get my black belt. The dojo got me out of depression and towards the end of it I was actually pretty fucking happy with my life - also started to realise I enjoyed feeling like a man, yea it helped me overcome a lot of anxiety issues.

23 I moved out of the dojo. The dojo made me extremely disciplined, clean eating, waking up at 5:40am every morning, always being accountable for my actions. However it was no self-discipline, they simply just kicked my ass into shape. I also met a girl who would become my (now ex) gf of 2 years.

25 My gf was the hottest I've ever been with and did all the kinky shit I always wanted to do. I clearly had massive ego problems still and she was super jealous or controlling. I couldn't speak to women, had to delete facebook, couldn't talk to my friends. Basically hand over my man hood. Well guess what I chose... yea so I basically deserve all the shit I get. I just watched Chris's video about being a man and he basically summed up that crushed feeling of losing your man hood. However instead of it being caused by not talking to a chick it was in my face every single fucking day. I stopped working out, I stopped studying, I just played video games, watched porn and reddit (and sex with my gf occasionaly and spent a lot of time doing stupid shit like take her shopping).

Well about 2 weeks ago I realised my life was heading into the shit. My roomates are 30,33 and 38 respectively and while they're perfectly good guys I just really didn't want to grow up to be like them (low paying 9.5, haven't seen one of them bring home a girl in 4+ months) To be fair the 38 yo is somewhat alpha but he is short and bald so not exactly a playah.

So I quit games, quit porn (and masturbating so far) and quit wasting time on reddit. I started training again, meditating daily, getting up early. I guess I grew some self respect and after one night my gf was being exceptionally annoying I told her to get fucked and kicked her at 12:00am. That was last Saturday.

Being "Single" again I was reminded that GGL existed and read a few articles about AA. Fuck I realised instantly I needed to do this shit - and chris is right, it's not even about girls that much, I got laid 5 days ago so I'm not super horny - it's about being a man. I go to the dojo and hit people and get hit and walk extremely hard through crazy pain, but I know I'm not a man. I work 10 hours a day for months on end and get the top of my class at uni and the appraisal of my peers and tutors, but I know I'm not a man. Boys can't talk to women, men can, I can't talk to women, so I'm a lil bitch boy.

I think defeating AA is the most important thing in my life - my "natural" game is adequate, but I can't speak to women (or anyone for that matter). I am a loner by choice, I have a few close friends and tried to be in a "Crew" but it's not for me, too much ego - inflates my ego - no good.

Opinion of Chris

Wow. Awesome dude. I never thought he was a douche bag, he always talks from a point of no ego. He says some harsh words that hurt my ego when I was younger (which made me not like him so much) but now I can realise it's just all ego. I like chris as opposed to TRP because in the dojo "eliminating ones ego" is the penultimate goal. The dojo is very close to my heart and basically my family, however I think my sensei and my seniors would be proud of me if I beat AA - because martial artists are supposed to be men, and men can talk to women. When I look at some of the pictures of members here my initial reaction is "douchebag" but I realise that's just because I'm on the other side of the fence right now - I'll post pics in a future post and you will see I'm terribly average (besides my height). I just look like someone's programmer husband atm - need some edge.

Moving Forward (Goals)

Get Ripped: Dojo 3x a week. It's very good cardio, won't get me big but can get me down to 8% BF. Mentally however it's 100% needed.
I would like to start going to the gym 3x a week, too poor atm so instead I will do the 100x pullups per day challenge at home. My joints need to be strengthened anyway. Steroids? not now, maybe when I'm older.

Get Enhanced:

Unfortunely drugs like modafonil and kratom are illegal in Australia!!!! (they are in the same classification as heroine) so super illegal.
The thing that works for me is when I was living at the dojo we would do a japanese prayer twice a day - for some reason it really helps chill my mind, not religious but thinking about defeating your ego, giving to others, clearing the "dust from your mind". Best I can do.

Get Laid

I don't actually want to get laid that much. It's not like this huge thirst in side of me. I definitely am a relationships guy but I would like to have at least 30-40 women under my belt to give me a good idea of the right kind of women. As long as I'm getting laid 2-3 times a week, but one chick or many, I'll be happy.

That being said I really want to beat AA - it's a matter of my manhood, and yea I'm just as scared to talk to a hot girl as I am to talk to a fat gamer guy - the hotness of the girl makes no difference it's just talking to people I'm shit at.

Get Style

My style sucks. My friends make fun of me all the time. My goal in the past was to just get super ripped and wear tight clothes. I suck at style, definitely need style. I just want style for girls though, generally I prefer being "invisible"

Get Hung

Perhaps in the future, I'm average 6" and basically happy with the size of my dong.

Get Paid[/b[

I think my ability to get paid is related to my AA. I'm "bright" like when I applied myself I topped the class of 160. I've started business before ($40/hr) but didn't have the balls to go further. I know how to make websites, teaching myself to makes apps, learning to code, Virtual Reality, also I'm a wiz at photoshop, indesign, can make models etc.

Currently the innovation manager at the old company I worked for is interested in the commercial applications of my uni project and basically says if I can get a working prototype she will get funding for it. My family just seems to attract money, mum net worth = millions through business, my brother is 21 and earning 84K a year (he's gay though).

Even though I have all these opportunities the only thing I can think about is AA. It's all I think about all day, is AA AA AA FUCKING AA. So yes I'm starting a year too late but I need to beat my fucking AA 100% IT HAS TO HAPPEN even if it takes me 12 months. Chris is right, I'm thining "I'm not even horny why do I feel so shit when I can't approach a girl" I have no social freedom, I base my entire identitity on this failure. FUCK.

Huge wall of text, I'm not usually this self absorbed - this post is 2 years in the making though. I was always too afraid to post because I knew once I posted I would be "commited" and my ego was scared to start AA - and even social anxiety program I couldn't do. I've had a few man moments in my life, and I want to start having a lot more.

I will post pictures and the rest soon - I want to become invested in this community. My friends will be you guys and my family at the dojo. This will be my life, I hope some of you (or even one) will become a little invested in me and help me along the way.

So lucky to have this website - so lucky.

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