What's up guys I am in a pretty horrible spot in my life right now and I was wondering if anyone has been through something similar and can offer up some words of wisdom.
I've had a history of substance abuse and addiction but it was always manageable and I could control the cravings and not binge. Over the last 1.5 years though, dating back to January 2015 it has gotten out of control. I won't get much into it but I spent the last 15, 16 months or so using and completing neglecting my social/sex life.
I can't even say that I feel bad about it because at the time I felt pretty damn happy getting high. It wasn't until about 3 weeks ago that I graduated college that I realized I am going to ruin the rest of my life if I keep this up.
So I quit everything cold turkey last week and started trying to get my life on track again, starting with girls which are pretty important to me. Last week went fine and I approached, etc and it was fine since I didn't get hit with the withdraw symptoms yet. This week though it's been absolute hell with the withdraws.
I am having trouble keeping my weight up, eating, always feel tired (I am sleeping 8 hours a night and 1.5 hours nap during the day and I still don't have energy), going through extremely bad mood swings and feel like throwing up a lot of the times. Monday was bad but I still managed to drag myself out of the house but I couldn't approach. Yesterday my mood was slightly higher and I approached some girls/got #s. The weird thing is I approached out of guilt because of Monday when I felt really down. Truth be told I feel so numb inside emotionally nowadays and the only emotions I do feel is sadness/guilt.
This morning was the worst day by far, I barely dragged myself out of bed and went to the gym. I was so tired/lacking energy that I left after 15 minutes. I felt sick physically and didn't try to approach. I talked to some people in support groups regarding this problem and their suggestion is for to take a break for dating and just get myself through the summer.
I didn't have much to say about their advice at the time because inside I just feel so guilty about not taking action/approaching that I told myself there was not a snowball chance in hell I was just going to sit around for the next 3 months. However, I do understand where they are coming from as I am going through pretty bad withdraw right now. I just finished lunch as I am writing this and I seriously feel like vomiting and my head feels like an overinflated balloon.
So when people tell me to give myself a break I totally get it. However, I just feel so guilt not taking any action so I then force myself out of the house. Somedays when the withdraw symptoms aren't bad I can approach, somedays I approach just because I feel guilty, but days like today when I just feel so terrible I can't take action I end up feeling so guilty, beat myself up, and feel so hopeless.
If anyone has gone through anything similar and know how to handle this situation please chime in. I'd greatly appreciate it.
I've had a history of substance abuse and addiction but it was always manageable and I could control the cravings and not binge. Over the last 1.5 years though, dating back to January 2015 it has gotten out of control. I won't get much into it but I spent the last 15, 16 months or so using and completing neglecting my social/sex life.
I can't even say that I feel bad about it because at the time I felt pretty damn happy getting high. It wasn't until about 3 weeks ago that I graduated college that I realized I am going to ruin the rest of my life if I keep this up.
So I quit everything cold turkey last week and started trying to get my life on track again, starting with girls which are pretty important to me. Last week went fine and I approached, etc and it was fine since I didn't get hit with the withdraw symptoms yet. This week though it's been absolute hell with the withdraws.
I am having trouble keeping my weight up, eating, always feel tired (I am sleeping 8 hours a night and 1.5 hours nap during the day and I still don't have energy), going through extremely bad mood swings and feel like throwing up a lot of the times. Monday was bad but I still managed to drag myself out of the house but I couldn't approach. Yesterday my mood was slightly higher and I approached some girls/got #s. The weird thing is I approached out of guilt because of Monday when I felt really down. Truth be told I feel so numb inside emotionally nowadays and the only emotions I do feel is sadness/guilt.
This morning was the worst day by far, I barely dragged myself out of bed and went to the gym. I was so tired/lacking energy that I left after 15 minutes. I felt sick physically and didn't try to approach. I talked to some people in support groups regarding this problem and their suggestion is for to take a break for dating and just get myself through the summer.
I didn't have much to say about their advice at the time because inside I just feel so guilty about not taking action/approaching that I told myself there was not a snowball chance in hell I was just going to sit around for the next 3 months. However, I do understand where they are coming from as I am going through pretty bad withdraw right now. I just finished lunch as I am writing this and I seriously feel like vomiting and my head feels like an overinflated balloon.
So when people tell me to give myself a break I totally get it. However, I just feel so guilt not taking any action so I then force myself out of the house. Somedays when the withdraw symptoms aren't bad I can approach, somedays I approach just because I feel guilty, but days like today when I just feel so terrible I can't take action I end up feeling so guilty, beat myself up, and feel so hopeless.
If anyone has gone through anything similar and know how to handle this situation please chime in. I'd greatly appreciate it.