So update number 1 on my goals for 2016.
So far I've managed to get the easier one out of the way and bought shoe lifts. I've managed to knock myself up about 3 inches, but I could possibly go to 5, although I feel that'd be a bit too uncomfortable. I immediately could noticed the difference and its boosted my confidence a little, although I still can't shake this "Im living a lie" sort of feeling. I know I shouldn't worry about that and I keep telling myself that "this is for the better" and that "being taller was something I've wanted all my life" but these self doubting thoughts keep creeping in my head like "what if I go home with a girl, take off my shoes and I drop a couple inches and it gets real awkward with the girl". Is that a silly thing to think? I don't know maybe I just gotta plow through.
I've also now got a second job driving for uber. So far this has been a pretty helpful job. It's making me some real good pocket money that I've been spending on things to improve myself (better clothes, the shoe lifts, ect.) and hopefully I'll be able to move out of my parents place soon, if I can find a roommate. One thing this has been especially good for is my social problems. Considering this job almost forces you to be social this has defiantly started making me get a little more comfortable around people I'm not used to.
One thing that I think really went right for me is that I got a new hairstyle. My natural hair is really, REALLY thick and wavy (I have yet to go to a barber/stylist who HASNT said that I have the thickest hair they've ever seen) and gets very curly and puffs out like an Afro the longer it grows. It's not a pretty sight. A guy I work with however told me his friend tried somethin called a relaxer which would make the hair lie flat. Sounded right up my alley so I made an appointment with my stylist and I gotta say, hot damn does my hair look good now.
So something I have been slacking on is going out and trying to be more social. Being put in a social position, like my uber job does, has become a lot easier, but putting MYSELF in a social position hasn't been getting easier and I haven't really tried to do it almost at all this week. This is in part do to my first job which has been slamming me with hours lately, smack dab in the middle of the day so when I DO try to go out the places are usually empty and I go home feeling defeated, because I didn't do anything to improve that night. However I also have to be honest with myself and come to the realization that I'm also being lazy at times. Sometimes I just lack any real drive to go out and improve myself and this has been leaking into other parts of my life, such as going to the gym, which I have also been slacking on. I do feel that this lack of motivation and energy may be In part to my diet which hasn't been the best lately. Anyone have any input on that? One thing I will say is that I have found it slightly easier when I DO actually talk to people. This may be from my uber job or maybe from the confidence in getting from the new hair or the shoe lifts but the change is there. It's a very small change, slow, and very subtle but hey improvement is improvement.
So that was my week. Not nearly that kickass, "full speed ahead" start that I wanted but I think I did make some decent steps. Let's hope next week is better
-Dragomax Out!
So far I've managed to get the easier one out of the way and bought shoe lifts. I've managed to knock myself up about 3 inches, but I could possibly go to 5, although I feel that'd be a bit too uncomfortable. I immediately could noticed the difference and its boosted my confidence a little, although I still can't shake this "Im living a lie" sort of feeling. I know I shouldn't worry about that and I keep telling myself that "this is for the better" and that "being taller was something I've wanted all my life" but these self doubting thoughts keep creeping in my head like "what if I go home with a girl, take off my shoes and I drop a couple inches and it gets real awkward with the girl". Is that a silly thing to think? I don't know maybe I just gotta plow through.
I've also now got a second job driving for uber. So far this has been a pretty helpful job. It's making me some real good pocket money that I've been spending on things to improve myself (better clothes, the shoe lifts, ect.) and hopefully I'll be able to move out of my parents place soon, if I can find a roommate. One thing this has been especially good for is my social problems. Considering this job almost forces you to be social this has defiantly started making me get a little more comfortable around people I'm not used to.
One thing that I think really went right for me is that I got a new hairstyle. My natural hair is really, REALLY thick and wavy (I have yet to go to a barber/stylist who HASNT said that I have the thickest hair they've ever seen) and gets very curly and puffs out like an Afro the longer it grows. It's not a pretty sight. A guy I work with however told me his friend tried somethin called a relaxer which would make the hair lie flat. Sounded right up my alley so I made an appointment with my stylist and I gotta say, hot damn does my hair look good now.
So something I have been slacking on is going out and trying to be more social. Being put in a social position, like my uber job does, has become a lot easier, but putting MYSELF in a social position hasn't been getting easier and I haven't really tried to do it almost at all this week. This is in part do to my first job which has been slamming me with hours lately, smack dab in the middle of the day so when I DO try to go out the places are usually empty and I go home feeling defeated, because I didn't do anything to improve that night. However I also have to be honest with myself and come to the realization that I'm also being lazy at times. Sometimes I just lack any real drive to go out and improve myself and this has been leaking into other parts of my life, such as going to the gym, which I have also been slacking on. I do feel that this lack of motivation and energy may be In part to my diet which hasn't been the best lately. Anyone have any input on that? One thing I will say is that I have found it slightly easier when I DO actually talk to people. This may be from my uber job or maybe from the confidence in getting from the new hair or the shoe lifts but the change is there. It's a very small change, slow, and very subtle but hey improvement is improvement.
So that was my week. Not nearly that kickass, "full speed ahead" start that I wanted but I think I did make some decent steps. Let's hope next week is better
-Dragomax Out!