Hi everyone,
I'm Jeff, 20 years old, and lived in the Bay all my life. My goal is to legit follow through with the AA program this summer- rest of year and finally start living my life to its potential. Lets see, though I've always had quite a bit of potential, I've definitely fallen short of tapping into it. I was pretty much a loser throughout the entirety of high school with very few real friends and opportunities.. in retrospect this is largely because I had a porn addiction and jerked off by myself in my room 4-5 times a day everyday throughout the entire time. Not many people realize that if this is your life, you have know motivation at all to go out and actually gain a real life. I've since recognized this extreme problem, taken steps to fix it and am happy to say that I am , though not completely recovered from the effects of this devastating addiction, am well on the right path and am feeling tons better. A few months ago I would simply put off this program as something for the future, I feel as though I'm at a point now where I can find real success if I just do it. yourbrainrebalanced, a community for recovering porn addicts is actually where I first heard about GLL by the way.
If I wanted to achieve one thing in the next 12 months would be to ditch my AA/ anxiety in general when dealing with women and actually allow my inner personality/ self to be able to shine through.
I'm fairly new the PUA community as most of it is pretty shit and I've never been really convinced or in the right place in my life to seriously pursue it.
I've had 2 transitory relationships almost more than two years ago now so its safe to say I'm fairly inexperienced when it comes to relationships/ sex in general - something I desperately want to change.
I want to develop true confidence in myself-
people find often find me fun to be around, even cool dare I say but its never consistent. I could be completely swaggy and cool one night and completely thrown and anxious the next- like i'm on my fucking period
My major blockages are probably a deep need for validation- like i've said I've got a lot of potential and I'm not just saying that. People tell me that all the time and I think because of that I feel that I need to live up to that and gain their validation. Almost as if my "potential" was holding me back- It's painfully ironic.
Anyways, that's a little about me. I truly appreciate this site and everyone here that sets out to help misguided/ lost people like myself. Maybe one day I'll be in a position to give back like that too.
Please let me know if I can provide any more information to better help you help me![:)]( ":)")
Best,
-Reading Raver (Jeff)
I'm Jeff, 20 years old, and lived in the Bay all my life. My goal is to legit follow through with the AA program this summer- rest of year and finally start living my life to its potential. Lets see, though I've always had quite a bit of potential, I've definitely fallen short of tapping into it. I was pretty much a loser throughout the entirety of high school with very few real friends and opportunities.. in retrospect this is largely because I had a porn addiction and jerked off by myself in my room 4-5 times a day everyday throughout the entire time. Not many people realize that if this is your life, you have know motivation at all to go out and actually gain a real life. I've since recognized this extreme problem, taken steps to fix it and am happy to say that I am , though not completely recovered from the effects of this devastating addiction, am well on the right path and am feeling tons better. A few months ago I would simply put off this program as something for the future, I feel as though I'm at a point now where I can find real success if I just do it. yourbrainrebalanced, a community for recovering porn addicts is actually where I first heard about GLL by the way.
If I wanted to achieve one thing in the next 12 months would be to ditch my AA/ anxiety in general when dealing with women and actually allow my inner personality/ self to be able to shine through.
I'm fairly new the PUA community as most of it is pretty shit and I've never been really convinced or in the right place in my life to seriously pursue it.
I've had 2 transitory relationships almost more than two years ago now so its safe to say I'm fairly inexperienced when it comes to relationships/ sex in general - something I desperately want to change.
I want to develop true confidence in myself-
people find often find me fun to be around, even cool dare I say but its never consistent. I could be completely swaggy and cool one night and completely thrown and anxious the next- like i'm on my fucking period
My major blockages are probably a deep need for validation- like i've said I've got a lot of potential and I'm not just saying that. People tell me that all the time and I think because of that I feel that I need to live up to that and gain their validation. Almost as if my "potential" was holding me back- It's painfully ironic.
Anyways, that's a little about me. I truly appreciate this site and everyone here that sets out to help misguided/ lost people like myself. Maybe one day I'll be in a position to give back like that too.
Please let me know if I can provide any more information to better help you help me
Best,
-Reading Raver (Jeff)