Hey guys, I have just joined GLL after lurking for a while and feel this is probably the best place to post after my intro (which hasn't been approved yet?)
I have had depression since I was a teenager. I was bullied very severely at high school by other boys, who would laugh and mock me, basically shun me and practice social exclusion to hurt me. Stuff like...when I would sit down somewhere, all the other boys would stand up and move away. They would snigger and laugh at me in hallways. This went on for years, as no staff member ever disciplined my enemies, despite multiple complaints. I ended up dropping out and attempting suicide.
The lesson I've learned is that the world is cruel, and if you won't stick up for yourself, people just trample all over you.
Anyway, I went into college with no friends, and five years later I still don't have any. I really want to meet girls but feel afraid that they'll view me the same way. I am an intensely sexual guy and feel a strong need to connect and belong to someone. Loneliness is pure poison for me, so I have put a lot of effort into expanding my social circle this year, but it's ended in failure. I don't want to give up. It is just really hard feeling powerless to change my situation.
I am 23 and live in New Zealand. Hopefully once my intro is approved, you'll learn more about why I'm here (I hate repeating myself). Any support from guys in NZ or AUS would be particularly helpful as we could potentially meet up and also I feel the culture is a lot different to the U.S. over here.
Thanks
I have had depression since I was a teenager. I was bullied very severely at high school by other boys, who would laugh and mock me, basically shun me and practice social exclusion to hurt me. Stuff like...when I would sit down somewhere, all the other boys would stand up and move away. They would snigger and laugh at me in hallways. This went on for years, as no staff member ever disciplined my enemies, despite multiple complaints. I ended up dropping out and attempting suicide.
The lesson I've learned is that the world is cruel, and if you won't stick up for yourself, people just trample all over you.
Anyway, I went into college with no friends, and five years later I still don't have any. I really want to meet girls but feel afraid that they'll view me the same way. I am an intensely sexual guy and feel a strong need to connect and belong to someone. Loneliness is pure poison for me, so I have put a lot of effort into expanding my social circle this year, but it's ended in failure. I don't want to give up. It is just really hard feeling powerless to change my situation.
I am 23 and live in New Zealand. Hopefully once my intro is approved, you'll learn more about why I'm here (I hate repeating myself). Any support from guys in NZ or AUS would be particularly helpful as we could potentially meet up and also I feel the culture is a lot different to the U.S. over here.
Thanks