So is about 2 years from my last lay with my ex-gf.
I'm very ashamed of myself of not getting laid for so long even though I had a few occasions. I tried a few months getting laid from night clubs but 0 success and after that I dedicated myself building a successful business, to have money, buy a great car and focus on girls later.
So after 4 failed businesses, I'm at the same place 2 years ago, just more frustrated with even less self esteem.
A few weeks ago I had a trip in Budapest alone, I wanted to hit on girls, get wasted on clubs, visit the city, but I just visited the city, I didn't have balls to talk to girls because of my bad english....even drunk.
Anyway, at midnight 2 hot polish blond girls(one my height 5'9 and one much shorter, but hotter) asked me about some good places to drink. I said I'm new as well, I didn't know many, just a few on a street nearby. We chatted for a few mins that they invited me to go with them....they were alone in Budapest for 2 more days.
We found a bar, got a few shots and the shorter one got drunk very fast and was hitting on me. Is not the first time a girl hits on me, but usually are the fat ones. So I kissed her in front of her friend(she was just watching all the time). After that, it was a bit awkward, but another round of shots made it better. After about 45 minutes and a few make out sessions, things started to look like at the beginning of a porn movie and every man's fantasy, I couldn't believe this....the taller girl started to touch me and told me they both want me. What????
From there one, it starts the biggest, most stupid and ashaming thing a straight single man can do....I got freaked out and I told them "sorry, i have to leave, tomorrow morning I have a plane to catch". I still can't believe I did that.
Probably the reason for this is all the sexual frustration I had( for first 6 months with my ex I had ED), lack of sex in the last 2 yeards and masturbation/porn.....I just thought I couldn't get my dick hard to fuck one, but 2?
There are so many people in this world that this looks like their dreams, but I fucking chickened out.
Fuck this business shit, I need to solve this thing once and for all. It's 2 years and no pussy. My self esteem is all time low, I'm also skinny fat, low test, short, small frame and looking like shit, but those girls somehow found me attractive enough (althoug I'm always well dressed and I'm dark skinned with beard which seems polish girls are into that).
Fuck, I tried gym 3 times in the last 2 years, last time for 3 months, I can't put any fucking muscles....other guys in 3 months have visible results. This discourages me a lot....it's like I'm working and getting nothing in return.
What do you guys recommend? I followed the advice in this forum of hitting the gym, but I have a very bad genes, I can't put any muscles which I need badly since I have a small frame.
On tinder I get just a few faties...my facial aesthetics is just average, small head, no defined chin or jaws.
....
My dad also tries to help me, he was a stud on his time...he always tells me about his past gfs and ONSs in European countries, from Uckraine to Denmark. My high school colleagues think he's hot at his 50s(one just hit on him), he has a great body, great jaw, chin and teeth....I think I just took the bad genes from my mom.
I'm very ashamed of myself of not getting laid for so long even though I had a few occasions. I tried a few months getting laid from night clubs but 0 success and after that I dedicated myself building a successful business, to have money, buy a great car and focus on girls later.
So after 4 failed businesses, I'm at the same place 2 years ago, just more frustrated with even less self esteem.
A few weeks ago I had a trip in Budapest alone, I wanted to hit on girls, get wasted on clubs, visit the city, but I just visited the city, I didn't have balls to talk to girls because of my bad english....even drunk.
Anyway, at midnight 2 hot polish blond girls(one my height 5'9 and one much shorter, but hotter) asked me about some good places to drink. I said I'm new as well, I didn't know many, just a few on a street nearby. We chatted for a few mins that they invited me to go with them....they were alone in Budapest for 2 more days.
We found a bar, got a few shots and the shorter one got drunk very fast and was hitting on me. Is not the first time a girl hits on me, but usually are the fat ones. So I kissed her in front of her friend(she was just watching all the time). After that, it was a bit awkward, but another round of shots made it better. After about 45 minutes and a few make out sessions, things started to look like at the beginning of a porn movie and every man's fantasy, I couldn't believe this....the taller girl started to touch me and told me they both want me. What????
From there one, it starts the biggest, most stupid and ashaming thing a straight single man can do....I got freaked out and I told them "sorry, i have to leave, tomorrow morning I have a plane to catch". I still can't believe I did that.
Probably the reason for this is all the sexual frustration I had( for first 6 months with my ex I had ED), lack of sex in the last 2 yeards and masturbation/porn.....I just thought I couldn't get my dick hard to fuck one, but 2?
There are so many people in this world that this looks like their dreams, but I fucking chickened out.
Fuck this business shit, I need to solve this thing once and for all. It's 2 years and no pussy. My self esteem is all time low, I'm also skinny fat, low test, short, small frame and looking like shit, but those girls somehow found me attractive enough (althoug I'm always well dressed and I'm dark skinned with beard which seems polish girls are into that).
Fuck, I tried gym 3 times in the last 2 years, last time for 3 months, I can't put any fucking muscles....other guys in 3 months have visible results. This discourages me a lot....it's like I'm working and getting nothing in return.
What do you guys recommend? I followed the advice in this forum of hitting the gym, but I have a very bad genes, I can't put any muscles which I need badly since I have a small frame.
On tinder I get just a few faties...my facial aesthetics is just average, small head, no defined chin or jaws.
....
My dad also tries to help me, he was a stud on his time...he always tells me about his past gfs and ONSs in European countries, from Uckraine to Denmark. My high school colleagues think he's hot at his 50s(one just hit on him), he has a great body, great jaw, chin and teeth....I think I just took the bad genes from my mom.