So I'm in desperate need of some advice. First a bit of background:
I've had several girls naked over the last few years. The first time I had a semi and didn't end up penetrating. This then set off the disastrous series of follow-ups where every time I had a girl in bed I would not get an erection; it has gotten so bad that I literally get no blood flow at all when it comes to action time. In fact, I end up feeling dissociated from the situation and just not aroused at all. This then makes me feel beaten down and questioning my ability to obtain an erection to the point that I'm constantly trying to test myself while masturbating which then leads a lot of anxiety and sometimes I have trouble even getting erections when I'm masturbating.
So I finally decided to get some help and got some viagra. As I've heard horror stories about priaprism I decided to start with a quarter (12.5mg) and when I was with my current girl it didn't work (though to my pleasant surprise I did have very strong erections once I was at home on my own and during the night). So I thought maybe it was because I took it too close to the action and the second time (12.5mg) I gave myself a one hour head start and no food, again it didn't work and I ended up with a terrible headache (I had some alcohol). So the third time I figured that I wouldn't chance it so I had a small meal took 25mg half an hour before I thought we were going to do it. I even masturbated this time to make sure I was going to get an erection (I did). Anyway, once I got there it took quite a bit of time (at least an hour or so) before the clothes came off but just could not get an erection again, in fact I was in the bathroom several times frantically trying to physically get it up. Of course it didn't happen.
I'm at my wit's end right now and would genuinely appreciate advice on what to do next. I'm starting to lose interest in this current girl and I'm also losing motivation to talk to girls because what's the point, I'm not going to end up having sex with them anyway.
I've had several girls naked over the last few years. The first time I had a semi and didn't end up penetrating. This then set off the disastrous series of follow-ups where every time I had a girl in bed I would not get an erection; it has gotten so bad that I literally get no blood flow at all when it comes to action time. In fact, I end up feeling dissociated from the situation and just not aroused at all. This then makes me feel beaten down and questioning my ability to obtain an erection to the point that I'm constantly trying to test myself while masturbating which then leads a lot of anxiety and sometimes I have trouble even getting erections when I'm masturbating.
So I finally decided to get some help and got some viagra. As I've heard horror stories about priaprism I decided to start with a quarter (12.5mg) and when I was with my current girl it didn't work (though to my pleasant surprise I did have very strong erections once I was at home on my own and during the night). So I thought maybe it was because I took it too close to the action and the second time (12.5mg) I gave myself a one hour head start and no food, again it didn't work and I ended up with a terrible headache (I had some alcohol). So the third time I figured that I wouldn't chance it so I had a small meal took 25mg half an hour before I thought we were going to do it. I even masturbated this time to make sure I was going to get an erection (I did). Anyway, once I got there it took quite a bit of time (at least an hour or so) before the clothes came off but just could not get an erection again, in fact I was in the bathroom several times frantically trying to physically get it up. Of course it didn't happen.
I'm at my wit's end right now and would genuinely appreciate advice on what to do next. I'm starting to lose interest in this current girl and I'm also losing motivation to talk to girls because what's the point, I'm not going to end up having sex with them anyway.