I'm very disappointed, but at least I knew it could end this way. I have ignored Chris's advices that tell you that if you have an extreme lack of social skills or a moderate social anxiety you shouldn't start AA. Even if I have really improved my confidence in the past months (before I couldn't even walk in my neighbourhood) when I saw the woman I suddenly froze up and I couldn't even look her in the eyes, same thing with other women, guys and elderly people...I tell you that advices like "just do it" or "don't give a fuck of what the other think of you" had never work for me. Another important thing that I want to say is that most people in this forum (before starting AA) have already had some kind of experience like failed relationship or dating, or they had sex 2-3 time, while I have never had sex, girlfriend, dating or stuff like that, neither a number or a single conversation with a girl that was initiated by me. I have already try the past years to approach but I couldn't, because I would had a panic attack . Anyway I have to go to my classmate's birthday this night but I don't think I will because I'm socially awkward as hell and there are many girls probably. I should try the other Chris guide "how to go out alone at night", the drills seem more doable. Sorry for my English, this is my second language.
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