Hey folks. This is day 2.
I just signed the petition, and reactivated my OK cupid profile.
since I am in the typing mood today here's what's on my mind.
Holy shit I feel horrible today. I worked out legs yesterday and feel absolutely drained all day. zero mental and physical energy. I came home, ate, and took a nap immediately. I feel even more tired, but somehow made my way to my desk to write this.
I fucking hate online dating. HATE IT. The idea of sending out mass messages to get like one mediocre looking girl to write you back. It's fucking ridiculous. But it's part of the rules so I did it. I probably sent out 20 or so messages today. I'll keep at it if it means I can get one girl out this week and maybe make out or bang her. At this point I just don't care.
Approach anxiety is the number 1 thing preventing me from getting laid. I'm actually pretty OK with girls, I banged a few girls off cold approach, but I never made it a habit enough to kill my AA. I have pretty bad AA right now. and I live in NYC where there are hot chicks everywhere. The thing is that when I was approaching a lot last year I would get girls super into me. I was getting numbers daily, but very few dates. So maybe I wasn't that hot, but the feeling of approaching fearlessly every day is POWERFUL. You know that eventually you will start banging tons of girls. But for some reason I stopped. Life gets in the way, you get sick, you have to travel and the approaching habit stops. Once you stop for a week your AA returns bigtime and it's hard to get back into it. It's really terrible and makes/made me feel like a complete fucking failure at times.
This is why I am doing the AA program. I'm here to win. I can do this. 3 months is not a lot!
I just signed the petition, and reactivated my OK cupid profile.
since I am in the typing mood today here's what's on my mind.
Holy shit I feel horrible today. I worked out legs yesterday and feel absolutely drained all day. zero mental and physical energy. I came home, ate, and took a nap immediately. I feel even more tired, but somehow made my way to my desk to write this.
I fucking hate online dating. HATE IT. The idea of sending out mass messages to get like one mediocre looking girl to write you back. It's fucking ridiculous. But it's part of the rules so I did it. I probably sent out 20 or so messages today. I'll keep at it if it means I can get one girl out this week and maybe make out or bang her. At this point I just don't care.
Approach anxiety is the number 1 thing preventing me from getting laid. I'm actually pretty OK with girls, I banged a few girls off cold approach, but I never made it a habit enough to kill my AA. I have pretty bad AA right now. and I live in NYC where there are hot chicks everywhere. The thing is that when I was approaching a lot last year I would get girls super into me. I was getting numbers daily, but very few dates. So maybe I wasn't that hot, but the feeling of approaching fearlessly every day is POWERFUL. You know that eventually you will start banging tons of girls. But for some reason I stopped. Life gets in the way, you get sick, you have to travel and the approaching habit stops. Once you stop for a week your AA returns bigtime and it's hard to get back into it. It's really terrible and makes/made me feel like a complete fucking failure at times.
This is why I am doing the AA program. I'm here to win. I can do this. 3 months is not a lot!