Reached out to you guys because I feel like you may understand and some of you might have gone through this, coming out better in the end.
Like a lot of the guys on this forum, I wasn't "the man" in high school or even college. I was not the guy who was going out to events with cute girls his age group, getting invited to the exclusive parties, making out with a cute girl at a party, or any of that stuff. I wasn't one of those guys and even haunts me now to some extent.
After college, I spent time getting laid and it did fix some things because sex just feels really good. After all that I had to spend some time thinking what I really wanted out of the game and I realized that it wasn't that I loved sleeping with lots of different women as much, it is that I loved knowing that I can sleep with lots of different women and having others know it too.
The thing is that even though I get laid and do a lot better with women now, a part of me feels angry and insufficient.
While I can talk about how angry the past makes me, what I really envied about the high school and college years was how guys were having those fulfilling and confidence boosting experiences with girls as they were going through the same stages in life. I feel like they got certain experiences that I didn't and now I want some version of those experiences as I go into my 30s.
It's like, I want the audience and high fives from others after I have fucked a cute girl more so than I actually want to fuck the cute girl herself.
How do I get those experiences as I get older?
Find a way to date a Victoria's Secret supermodel?
Make a sex tape with me and some hot girl?
Any other ideas?
Like a lot of the guys on this forum, I wasn't "the man" in high school or even college. I was not the guy who was going out to events with cute girls his age group, getting invited to the exclusive parties, making out with a cute girl at a party, or any of that stuff. I wasn't one of those guys and even haunts me now to some extent.
After college, I spent time getting laid and it did fix some things because sex just feels really good. After all that I had to spend some time thinking what I really wanted out of the game and I realized that it wasn't that I loved sleeping with lots of different women as much, it is that I loved knowing that I can sleep with lots of different women and having others know it too.
The thing is that even though I get laid and do a lot better with women now, a part of me feels angry and insufficient.
While I can talk about how angry the past makes me, what I really envied about the high school and college years was how guys were having those fulfilling and confidence boosting experiences with girls as they were going through the same stages in life. I feel like they got certain experiences that I didn't and now I want some version of those experiences as I go into my 30s.
It's like, I want the audience and high fives from others after I have fucked a cute girl more so than I actually want to fuck the cute girl herself.
How do I get those experiences as I get older?
Find a way to date a Victoria's Secret supermodel?
Make a sex tape with me and some hot girl?
Any other ideas?