Today I had this girl coming over to my house. I prepared everything this day and thought it would be a perfect day and I eventually would fuck her. But this didn't happen and the details really hurt me to write or tell. I feel depressed as fuck, because she told me that we were just friends when I tried something. Also I am high right now and I don't know what to fuck to do anymore. I feel like I fail in everything lol. My heart IS ALWAYS beating fast when I am talking to girls. I can't properly get myself out there. I feel like I am my own biggest enemy.
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