It's been a while since I posted here. Seems like I came to the level that I don't have a time for this forum and it actually feels great.
I met this girl in march and we spent two months of summer together. I consedered this as FB-relationships and in the end of summer, when she discovered I fucked other girls, she was really disappointed and our communication slowly decreased, she was insulted. In a nutshell, I rarely click with girls very good. I have 2(if I really want, I can bang 3rd girl, she wants, but I keep her close and don't bang yet cause I don't want) fuckbuddies and they are good girls that give me no shit, and no questions about other girls.
Here I am, banging two girls on regular basis. But when I cut(or almost cut) relationships with 1st girl from summer, it really feeled bad for me. I tried to distract and shit, but I think about her already for two months. She is probably the best woman I've ever met. In last two weeks, I've slept with two girls, and guys with two different girls I had a dreams about this gone girl. Few days ago she deleted me in VK(Russian facebook), and it made me realise: our story is not over. All my life I've run from something serious and couldn't cope with problems. So I decided to face it instead of avoid it. Long story short, I started chatting with her and told everything. That I am really missing her, and I think we should try another time. But she demands exclusivity. And I say "if you really want me, then you should be okay with shit like my debauchery". We haven't come to some consensus and decided to meet next week.
Need to mention that one of my fuckbuddies is really a good girl and she helped me cope with post-break depression with that summer-girl, she has been being so kind to me and sometimes really warmed my heart. I don't wanna hurt her.
When I was with summer girl and didn't bang other girls(I banged them regularly, but there were weeks where she was the only one. I want to have other girls in my life, but I want to keep this one to be my main crush that inspire me the most. But I just get so bored in monogamous relationship so it's not an option.
What could you advice me guys? I am slightly tangled as you can see from text above, I need some fresh look on this shit.
I met this girl in march and we spent two months of summer together. I consedered this as FB-relationships and in the end of summer, when she discovered I fucked other girls, she was really disappointed and our communication slowly decreased, she was insulted. In a nutshell, I rarely click with girls very good. I have 2(if I really want, I can bang 3rd girl, she wants, but I keep her close and don't bang yet cause I don't want) fuckbuddies and they are good girls that give me no shit, and no questions about other girls.
Here I am, banging two girls on regular basis. But when I cut(or almost cut) relationships with 1st girl from summer, it really feeled bad for me. I tried to distract and shit, but I think about her already for two months. She is probably the best woman I've ever met. In last two weeks, I've slept with two girls, and guys with two different girls I had a dreams about this gone girl. Few days ago she deleted me in VK(Russian facebook), and it made me realise: our story is not over. All my life I've run from something serious and couldn't cope with problems. So I decided to face it instead of avoid it. Long story short, I started chatting with her and told everything. That I am really missing her, and I think we should try another time. But she demands exclusivity. And I say "if you really want me, then you should be okay with shit like my debauchery". We haven't come to some consensus and decided to meet next week.
Need to mention that one of my fuckbuddies is really a good girl and she helped me cope with post-break depression with that summer-girl, she has been being so kind to me and sometimes really warmed my heart. I don't wanna hurt her.
When I was with summer girl and didn't bang other girls(I banged them regularly, but there were weeks where she was the only one. I want to have other girls in my life, but I want to keep this one to be my main crush that inspire me the most. But I just get so bored in monogamous relationship so it's not an option.
What could you advice me guys? I am slightly tangled as you can see from text above, I need some fresh look on this shit.