By most accounts, I have already exceeded expectations for my life.
I am a child, like many here, of unremarkable parents. At most I should have been a post office worker, or if you believe the movies, a drug dealer or criminal.
But somehow I have found myself in the midst of a land of great opportunity.
I am currently studying at the top university in my state. Formerly a big fish in a small ghetto, when I first got here, I found myself a small fish in a large research university.
Not having much presence, faith in my ability, or social standing, I was fell to a very dark place in my freshman year.
It was in that hole that I decided to change my life. And I have.
Now, my presence is felt even in large lecture halls. I have become a big fish.
Above avg body (i hope -- you all can judge, I've attached pics), above avg swag, maybe excessive confidence.
But I struggle with what is an existential factor in any man's life -- women.
A shy and bookish kid, I never had much experience with women. It didn't help that I was overweight for much of my childhood, and being brought up in a religious family probably did much in psyching me out of potentially sexual encounters.
I'm a former class president trying to be a bad boy.
I can tell that women expect alpha behavior. I can feel it. It's just that being the way I was for so long has left me unsure of myself at times, and even a little anxious.
I also don't talk to many women (nature of my degree--most girls studying math aren't v attractive).
These are problems I hope to fix in my time here on GLL.
I have receded into another dark place in my life, realizing I have a nonexistent sex life. I have become that same lonesome bodybuilder Chris was all those years ago.
But I think this dark place will reap even more benefits than the last one.
This is the start of my journey.
Cools
P.s. Could i get a body fat estimate? I'm about 6'2 220. Am I too chunky? Is that gyno? Am I ugly (lol)? Abs are flexed in third pic.
I am a child, like many here, of unremarkable parents. At most I should have been a post office worker, or if you believe the movies, a drug dealer or criminal.
But somehow I have found myself in the midst of a land of great opportunity.
I am currently studying at the top university in my state. Formerly a big fish in a small ghetto, when I first got here, I found myself a small fish in a large research university.
Not having much presence, faith in my ability, or social standing, I was fell to a very dark place in my freshman year.
It was in that hole that I decided to change my life. And I have.
Now, my presence is felt even in large lecture halls. I have become a big fish.
Above avg body (i hope -- you all can judge, I've attached pics), above avg swag, maybe excessive confidence.
But I struggle with what is an existential factor in any man's life -- women.
A shy and bookish kid, I never had much experience with women. It didn't help that I was overweight for much of my childhood, and being brought up in a religious family probably did much in psyching me out of potentially sexual encounters.
I'm a former class president trying to be a bad boy.
I can tell that women expect alpha behavior. I can feel it. It's just that being the way I was for so long has left me unsure of myself at times, and even a little anxious.
I also don't talk to many women (nature of my degree--most girls studying math aren't v attractive).
These are problems I hope to fix in my time here on GLL.
I have receded into another dark place in my life, realizing I have a nonexistent sex life. I have become that same lonesome bodybuilder Chris was all those years ago.
But I think this dark place will reap even more benefits than the last one.
This is the start of my journey.
Cools
P.s. Could i get a body fat estimate? I'm about 6'2 220. Am I too chunky? Is that gyno? Am I ugly (lol)? Abs are flexed in third pic.