Hi everyone, my name is Tom, I want the sex and social life I know I am capable of, but without experience, seems so distant. I want to do this by prioritizing my sex life for the next few years, if I stay where I am I fear I will never change..
I’m 23 years old, I have just graduated from University last November and have been living back at my parents’ house out in the middle of countryside outside a small town doing ad hoc catering and job hunting through December 2016. I’m 5” 10’ and weigh 67kg (147lb) currently. Probably a 6 currently in the facial looks department as I have a weak chin and a pale complexion, imagine a ginger with brown hair. A body fat around 13 percent. I have an OK build from lifting but needs more work.
My ONE goal for 2017 is to lose my Virginity, by following the Lose your virginity program.
I do want a full time job. My Undergrad is very vocational (Mechanical Engineering) and I have passion for the field. I feel that this decision is not a mortal blow to me following the program.
To keep my number one goal authentically at No.1 and have a full time job. I’m willing to sacrifice all else to make up for the massive chunk of time eaten up, so any time saving tricks would be helpful, comfort be damned. I want to cut it as close as I can to all in, without going to a part-time income. I’ve resolved to only accept a job in a city, where I can live close to the city center and follow the program in the after work. lunch times and the weekend.
I’ve been reading The Redpill for about 18 months and the rest of the Manosphere since then (GLL hits closest to home for me). I feel that although I’ve internalized some important concepts. Posture, eye contact, lifting and supplementation all great stuff. I’ve mostly been binge reading, with little active effort to apply social concepts learnt.
I think my main blockages are, a feeling of being forever a low SMV guy unable to make real friends, bullied at school, a complete loner during my A-levels (Last two years before College for US), I felt completely inferior to others and built a very strong inferiority complex, didn’t join any sports teams, afraid to go to a gym, generally felt like I was in survival mode each lunch time break alone by myself. Parents were caring but unable to dispense the tough love I needed to improve.
I’ve progressed a lot since being away at university, done part time jobs, and joined lots of clubs done ok in them but never as a social lead, always in the background. Starting lifting a year ago and have put on about 30lb of weight though mostly heavy compound lifts. Love seeing results and probably have 15-20lb in muscle gains so far. I can make friendly conversation with guys and girls, generally look and feel more confident now, but would feel unable to ever arrange things like hanging out with a guy or girl outside of the situation we interact in, out of anxiety and lack of belief.
I have only ever had one girlfriend at 19, first year of University, never kissed a girl before her. She approached me, but I did ask for her number. She arranged the first date at the restaurant she worked at. I was Beta during the relationship, and never got passed 3rd base oral sex with her, I was too nervous to make a move to have sex. She broke with me after about 5 dates. After that I have never asked a girl to hang out, or physically escalated, just been a nice guy around them. Porn and jerking off was of course the only way I could live comfortable like this for the rest of my undergrad. But now I’ve had enough. A concerted effort to eradicate porn and masturbation from my life, with various ups and downs has partially succeeded. And during those week long streaks I’ve had, staying as I am has become unbearable.
I found out about GLL through Danger and Play’s Co-podcast about TRT with Chris and Mike (Not something I’m considering in my 20s). I want to start the Lose your virginity program as soon as I can move out of my parents’ house and into a city. Thank you for all those who have shared their own stories on this forum, they really have helped me believe I can do it. I know the next few years will require consistent organised effort, but it’s what I want. My thanks to all you guys.
I’m 23 years old, I have just graduated from University last November and have been living back at my parents’ house out in the middle of countryside outside a small town doing ad hoc catering and job hunting through December 2016. I’m 5” 10’ and weigh 67kg (147lb) currently. Probably a 6 currently in the facial looks department as I have a weak chin and a pale complexion, imagine a ginger with brown hair. A body fat around 13 percent. I have an OK build from lifting but needs more work.
My ONE goal for 2017 is to lose my Virginity, by following the Lose your virginity program.
I do want a full time job. My Undergrad is very vocational (Mechanical Engineering) and I have passion for the field. I feel that this decision is not a mortal blow to me following the program.
To keep my number one goal authentically at No.1 and have a full time job. I’m willing to sacrifice all else to make up for the massive chunk of time eaten up, so any time saving tricks would be helpful, comfort be damned. I want to cut it as close as I can to all in, without going to a part-time income. I’ve resolved to only accept a job in a city, where I can live close to the city center and follow the program in the after work. lunch times and the weekend.
I’ve been reading The Redpill for about 18 months and the rest of the Manosphere since then (GLL hits closest to home for me). I feel that although I’ve internalized some important concepts. Posture, eye contact, lifting and supplementation all great stuff. I’ve mostly been binge reading, with little active effort to apply social concepts learnt.
I think my main blockages are, a feeling of being forever a low SMV guy unable to make real friends, bullied at school, a complete loner during my A-levels (Last two years before College for US), I felt completely inferior to others and built a very strong inferiority complex, didn’t join any sports teams, afraid to go to a gym, generally felt like I was in survival mode each lunch time break alone by myself. Parents were caring but unable to dispense the tough love I needed to improve.
I’ve progressed a lot since being away at university, done part time jobs, and joined lots of clubs done ok in them but never as a social lead, always in the background. Starting lifting a year ago and have put on about 30lb of weight though mostly heavy compound lifts. Love seeing results and probably have 15-20lb in muscle gains so far. I can make friendly conversation with guys and girls, generally look and feel more confident now, but would feel unable to ever arrange things like hanging out with a guy or girl outside of the situation we interact in, out of anxiety and lack of belief.
I have only ever had one girlfriend at 19, first year of University, never kissed a girl before her. She approached me, but I did ask for her number. She arranged the first date at the restaurant she worked at. I was Beta during the relationship, and never got passed 3rd base oral sex with her, I was too nervous to make a move to have sex. She broke with me after about 5 dates. After that I have never asked a girl to hang out, or physically escalated, just been a nice guy around them. Porn and jerking off was of course the only way I could live comfortable like this for the rest of my undergrad. But now I’ve had enough. A concerted effort to eradicate porn and masturbation from my life, with various ups and downs has partially succeeded. And during those week long streaks I’ve had, staying as I am has become unbearable.
I found out about GLL through Danger and Play’s Co-podcast about TRT with Chris and Mike (Not something I’m considering in my 20s). I want to start the Lose your virginity program as soon as I can move out of my parents’ house and into a city. Thank you for all those who have shared their own stories on this forum, they really have helped me believe I can do it. I know the next few years will require consistent organised effort, but it’s what I want. My thanks to all you guys.