I've read a few logs of guys losing their virginity early to mid 20's at the oldest so any one actually been able to deal with years of built up hate, anger, frustration and self loathing that comes from being a virgin?
I'm over 30 years old and still technically a virgin so I'm not sure if this even possible at this point.
I've come to the point in my life where even stepping outside of my house and seeing women or worse couples (usually the guy will look like dogshit 8 times out of 10) triggers (sorry i dont know any better word but its funny being triggered like SJWs,feminists etc) my anger and depression and my mind spirals out of control in a train of negative and self hating thought.
Don't feel like I have anything to live for anymore either. just living day to day on auto pilot. I've noticed i dont even check for traffic sometimes when I cross the street, subconsciously hoping i get hit by a car and it's all over. Even started smoking again because I honestly don't care if i get cancer, i will just ignore it until it gets fatal and they can finally put me down.
On the other hand my rage and frustratiuon does help me workout.. i've made a lot of gain in the last few years at the gym because when I lift I go into a very dark place of anger remembering what I am and just throw all of that at the iron.. probably why i blew 5 discs in my back few months ago but whatever.
I'm over 30 years old and still technically a virgin so I'm not sure if this even possible at this point.
I've come to the point in my life where even stepping outside of my house and seeing women or worse couples (usually the guy will look like dogshit 8 times out of 10) triggers (sorry i dont know any better word but its funny being triggered like SJWs,feminists etc) my anger and depression and my mind spirals out of control in a train of negative and self hating thought.
Don't feel like I have anything to live for anymore either. just living day to day on auto pilot. I've noticed i dont even check for traffic sometimes when I cross the street, subconsciously hoping i get hit by a car and it's all over. Even started smoking again because I honestly don't care if i get cancer, i will just ignore it until it gets fatal and they can finally put me down.
On the other hand my rage and frustratiuon does help me workout.. i've made a lot of gain in the last few years at the gym because when I lift I go into a very dark place of anger remembering what I am and just throw all of that at the iron.. probably why i blew 5 discs in my back few months ago but whatever.