Hey guys.
I don't really know where to begin.
First I want to say that I'm sorry for this rant.
But I feel like utter shit.
I need to vent out.
More then that I feel ashamed.
Let me tell you the whole story.
A week ago , I met a girl in a bar.
Hot , brunette , smart (or at least she seemed so).
Anyway you can read the report I made.
Long story short , she played hard to get the whole night and in the end I got a blowjob.
Here's the link : www.goodlookingloser.com/forums/lay-repo...ntures-bj-crazy-girl
After that I tried to set up a date.
She responded a day after my text saying she couldn't make it.
But the same night she asked me what I was doing.
We ended up getting a quick drink in a bar with friends of her.
She asked to play low and so I did.
I tried to kiss her when we were alone , she turned her head , smiling saying that it would be too easy for me now.
Anyway we had a good time.
The following night (it was yesterday night) , we checked up , I was at party in bar with friends of mine for a birthday.
I was dressed classy , in a suit.
Looked fucking good (or I think so at least).
Around 2 in the morning we went to the "best club" in town where we had reserved tables and bottles.
I asked the girl to come.
She asked me if she could bring a few girl friends , I told her it was not a problem.
So she comes with 2 of her girl friends , I make them pass without paying in the club.
We sit down.
I set her friends up with my bestfriend and another friend of mine (gotta look out for my boys).
When we're in much smaller group I try to kiss her , but she turns her head , saying something like "not now".
Anyway I enjoy the party , make sure that my friends are isolated with the girls.
And now , my girl checks up on one of her "friend" who was in the club.
The friend is a guy , who I know smashes quite a bit since he's a good friend of my bestfriend.
He's a cool dude actually.
Anyway , the girl keeps evading me.
End of the night comes.
One of the girls propose an after party at her place.
You can guess what happened.
I had set up the girls with my boys , and my girl was with her friend.
Man it hurts to write this.
I learned from my bestfriend , that the guy had already fucked the girl before months ago , but she was weird or some shit apparently.
My bestfriend was distraught because of me , I reassured that everything was fine and that he should fuck one of the girls extra hard tonight for me hahah...
They went on their way.
My girl insisted to say goodbye to me.
Now the funny thing is , this morning my bestfriend called (I sent him a text saying I felt like shit and ashamed for caring like this).
He told me , that after they went to the appartement , the guy who was with "my" girl , got quickly out saying that the girl was rude/crazy.
She did some coke apparently.
I don't think he lied to me , he swore that it was true.
Also my bestfriend didn't fuck his girl for some funny reason , in the end she was weird in bed haha.
Also , this morning , when "my" girl and the girl my bestfriend tried to fuck spoke and at one moment she spoke my name saying like "oh shit Plisken" (Plisken's not my name but you understand) but he couldn't hear the rest.
When I got home , I fucking cried like a faggot.
I fucking punched my car , couldn't close my eyes without picturing the girl fucking some other dude.
For some reason I liked this girl.
Everytime I give the slightest of fuck , the girl slips trough my fingers or some shit.
Everytime.
And it fucking hurts. I feel dirty and used. I feel tired of this.
I feel like she came , just for the alcohol and the party I could provide.
And dumped me on the sidewalk like a motherfucking rat.
I'm not mad at the guy , he's a cool dude , I'm mad against myself.
I'm mad against this number games , mad against this girl.
Am I not good enough? Am I that fucking low ?
I fucking hate myself for writing this.
Lately my life has been going to shit.
Family torn apart , encountering tremendous difficulty in my personnal projects , studies boring me to death , you name it , everything is going out of my control.
I feel powerless.
And now this girl slips trough.
I just wanted , a small win.
A little win.
You know , I take rejection better these days , but what happened last night , when she chose him instead of me , it was too much to bear.
I'm a funny guy , I'm a happy guy , I make people feel good , feel great , make them pass an amazing time , I help people whenever I can , I fight for all those things and deep down I'm a romantic , but now I feel broken.
I want this part of me to die.
It sounds so fucking emo to write this shit.
But that's how I feel.
In some twisted way , I want the girl to apologize for yesterday.
It's not cool you know.
I'm direct , I'm agressive , all the usual GLL stuff , she knew what I wanted.
Hell stuff had already happened between us two.
So what the fuck.
What the actual fuck.
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I don't really know where to begin.
First I want to say that I'm sorry for this rant.
But I feel like utter shit.
I need to vent out.
More then that I feel ashamed.
Let me tell you the whole story.
A week ago , I met a girl in a bar.
Hot , brunette , smart (or at least she seemed so).
Anyway you can read the report I made.
Long story short , she played hard to get the whole night and in the end I got a blowjob.
Here's the link : www.goodlookingloser.com/forums/lay-repo...ntures-bj-crazy-girl
After that I tried to set up a date.
She responded a day after my text saying she couldn't make it.
But the same night she asked me what I was doing.
We ended up getting a quick drink in a bar with friends of her.
She asked to play low and so I did.
I tried to kiss her when we were alone , she turned her head , smiling saying that it would be too easy for me now.
Anyway we had a good time.
The following night (it was yesterday night) , we checked up , I was at party in bar with friends of mine for a birthday.
I was dressed classy , in a suit.
Looked fucking good (or I think so at least).
Around 2 in the morning we went to the "best club" in town where we had reserved tables and bottles.
I asked the girl to come.
She asked me if she could bring a few girl friends , I told her it was not a problem.
So she comes with 2 of her girl friends , I make them pass without paying in the club.
We sit down.
I set her friends up with my bestfriend and another friend of mine (gotta look out for my boys).
When we're in much smaller group I try to kiss her , but she turns her head , saying something like "not now".
Anyway I enjoy the party , make sure that my friends are isolated with the girls.
And now , my girl checks up on one of her "friend" who was in the club.
The friend is a guy , who I know smashes quite a bit since he's a good friend of my bestfriend.
He's a cool dude actually.
Anyway , the girl keeps evading me.
End of the night comes.
One of the girls propose an after party at her place.
You can guess what happened.
I had set up the girls with my boys , and my girl was with her friend.
Man it hurts to write this.
I learned from my bestfriend , that the guy had already fucked the girl before months ago , but she was weird or some shit apparently.
My bestfriend was distraught because of me , I reassured that everything was fine and that he should fuck one of the girls extra hard tonight for me hahah...
They went on their way.
My girl insisted to say goodbye to me.
Now the funny thing is , this morning my bestfriend called (I sent him a text saying I felt like shit and ashamed for caring like this).
He told me , that after they went to the appartement , the guy who was with "my" girl , got quickly out saying that the girl was rude/crazy.
She did some coke apparently.
I don't think he lied to me , he swore that it was true.
Also my bestfriend didn't fuck his girl for some funny reason , in the end she was weird in bed haha.
Also , this morning , when "my" girl and the girl my bestfriend tried to fuck spoke and at one moment she spoke my name saying like "oh shit Plisken" (Plisken's not my name but you understand) but he couldn't hear the rest.
When I got home , I fucking cried like a faggot.
I fucking punched my car , couldn't close my eyes without picturing the girl fucking some other dude.
For some reason I liked this girl.
Everytime I give the slightest of fuck , the girl slips trough my fingers or some shit.
Everytime.
And it fucking hurts. I feel dirty and used. I feel tired of this.
I feel like she came , just for the alcohol and the party I could provide.
And dumped me on the sidewalk like a motherfucking rat.
I'm not mad at the guy , he's a cool dude , I'm mad against myself.
I'm mad against this number games , mad against this girl.
Am I not good enough? Am I that fucking low ?
I fucking hate myself for writing this.
Lately my life has been going to shit.
Family torn apart , encountering tremendous difficulty in my personnal projects , studies boring me to death , you name it , everything is going out of my control.
I feel powerless.
And now this girl slips trough.
I just wanted , a small win.
A little win.
You know , I take rejection better these days , but what happened last night , when she chose him instead of me , it was too much to bear.
I'm a funny guy , I'm a happy guy , I make people feel good , feel great , make them pass an amazing time , I help people whenever I can , I fight for all those things and deep down I'm a romantic , but now I feel broken.
I want this part of me to die.
It sounds so fucking emo to write this shit.
But that's how I feel.
In some twisted way , I want the girl to apologize for yesterday.
It's not cool you know.
I'm direct , I'm agressive , all the usual GLL stuff , she knew what I wanted.
Hell stuff had already happened between us two.
So what the fuck.
What the actual fuck.
