Hey guys. It has been a while since I posted on this. Let me tell you a crazy story from these couple of months and why I couldn´t be that active.
I managed to get this girl a few months ago. I met her online through a chatting game. After that we met in my apartment and on the first day I immediately fucked her. A few weeks after that I met her once more in a hotel. And we fucked the whole day. The third time I managed to fuck her in her own house while her parents were home. After that a lot of drama happened and I pushed her too much away and everything became negative. She eventually went talking with this other boy who hooked up with my ex. They started talking and talking, but I was starting to get suspicious of them. Eventually me and the girl stopped talking less each day. One day I found out that they had something going on and the guy showed me screens where she saids things like: "I love you" and such. This shit got me really depressed and I started crying when I read that. But even though I saw that I started texting her every day and the interactions just became shorter and more like a normal conversation . After this point I became too needy. I said to her that I missed her, that I wanted to see her and that I just need her. She basically told me that she can't do anything about it that "I miss her" and that it is too late for me.
So a few weeks later (now). She texted me out of the blue that she was sorry on how she treated me. So I made a suggestion: "You still want to meet up tomorrow?". She said: I can't, I am sorry. ( She had to work). She still talks with the guy , but somehow I can't let her go. I am having these nightmares where I wake up sometimes, because of my ex. And I still think of her each day. I think the reason is, because she is the first girl that liked me for who I am. I never had this before. I never could be ''myself''. And she was the first that accepted that side of me. For that reason I am sad as fuck that I let her go. I am not sure what to do now and I thought of typing this all to you guys that it could be a little better. I really hope you guys could help me. Thanks for reading![:)]( ":)")
I managed to get this girl a few months ago. I met her online through a chatting game. After that we met in my apartment and on the first day I immediately fucked her. A few weeks after that I met her once more in a hotel. And we fucked the whole day. The third time I managed to fuck her in her own house while her parents were home. After that a lot of drama happened and I pushed her too much away and everything became negative. She eventually went talking with this other boy who hooked up with my ex. They started talking and talking, but I was starting to get suspicious of them. Eventually me and the girl stopped talking less each day. One day I found out that they had something going on and the guy showed me screens where she saids things like: "I love you" and such. This shit got me really depressed and I started crying when I read that. But even though I saw that I started texting her every day and the interactions just became shorter and more like a normal conversation . After this point I became too needy. I said to her that I missed her, that I wanted to see her and that I just need her. She basically told me that she can't do anything about it that "I miss her" and that it is too late for me.
So a few weeks later (now). She texted me out of the blue that she was sorry on how she treated me. So I made a suggestion: "You still want to meet up tomorrow?". She said: I can't, I am sorry. ( She had to work). She still talks with the guy , but somehow I can't let her go. I am having these nightmares where I wake up sometimes, because of my ex. And I still think of her each day. I think the reason is, because she is the first girl that liked me for who I am. I never had this before. I never could be ''myself''. And she was the first that accepted that side of me. For that reason I am sad as fuck that I let her go. I am not sure what to do now and I thought of typing this all to you guys that it could be a little better. I really hope you guys could help me. Thanks for reading
