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After graduating college and working at no name company, I got hired by a company that is a household name (looks good on a resume!), am in a department with about 15 or so people all fit and in their early to mid 20s (5 hot girls, some cool guys, and all), and things look good for me in that sense. The salary I make gives me a bit of money to play around with.
But I have some past demons with nightlife and it has left me unfulfilled. The past weekend I went out drinking at a popular bar with my coworkers and it depressed me, not drinking itself but it depressed me and made me unfulfilled.
I have always wanted to bartend but couldn't do it in college since it was so cliquish, had to be a sorority girl or spoiled frat bro to get that chance, and it just left me in pieces.
Now whenever I have gone to bars and nightclubs, I don't have fun not because I hate loud music or anything, but I hate that I am not the bartender or person working there at a popular bar or a nightclub.
I am obviously not quitting my rewarding job which will give me a good future but I feel like if I don't address this nightlife demon, it is going to leave me unfulfilled and will be one of those things I look back on with regret.
Should I just avoid going to bars and nightclubs in order to escape the depression or should I do anything about it?
I work about 45 hrs a week and was wondering if I wanted to, could fit a side job in the nightlife industry into it.
After graduating college and working at no name company, I got hired by a company that is a household name (looks good on a resume!), am in a department with about 15 or so people all fit and in their early to mid 20s (5 hot girls, some cool guys, and all), and things look good for me in that sense. The salary I make gives me a bit of money to play around with.
But I have some past demons with nightlife and it has left me unfulfilled. The past weekend I went out drinking at a popular bar with my coworkers and it depressed me, not drinking itself but it depressed me and made me unfulfilled.
I have always wanted to bartend but couldn't do it in college since it was so cliquish, had to be a sorority girl or spoiled frat bro to get that chance, and it just left me in pieces.
Now whenever I have gone to bars and nightclubs, I don't have fun not because I hate loud music or anything, but I hate that I am not the bartender or person working there at a popular bar or a nightclub.
I am obviously not quitting my rewarding job which will give me a good future but I feel like if I don't address this nightlife demon, it is going to leave me unfulfilled and will be one of those things I look back on with regret.
Should I just avoid going to bars and nightclubs in order to escape the depression or should I do anything about it?
I work about 45 hrs a week and was wondering if I wanted to, could fit a side job in the nightlife industry into it.