I've been prescribed Lexapro 5mg and this is my 2nd day on it. Immediately after I took it I noticed a surge in positive feelings and started remembering everything that happened in my childhood that caused me to end up this way. From elemetary to high school. I journalled about all of this and it was cathartic, it has been a long time since I did anything like this. I read a lot about my condition and I think I've figured out what I have. It's probably OCD and GAD which was present uptil I was 14. I tried to control it through discipline for 2-3 years but it always got worse especially when I was exposed to social situations this past year.
So far, I've not noticed any side-effects except that I feel angry at myself for not doing anything substantial the past 8 months. And there was a time when I just felt empty, my mind was blank and I am not as obsessed over my face as I was before which might be a good thing as I had much of an emotional reaction previously when looking in the mirror. But I am not as motivated as I was before. I've noticed that I can't use worry to motivate me anymore. I just feel content/happy in the moment.
So far, I've not noticed any side-effects except that I feel angry at myself for not doing anything substantial the past 8 months. And there was a time when I just felt empty, my mind was blank and I am not as obsessed over my face as I was before which might be a good thing as I had much of an emotional reaction previously when looking in the mirror. But I am not as motivated as I was before. I've noticed that I can't use worry to motivate me anymore. I just feel content/happy in the moment.