Well I'm not really depressed, But just feeling down about where I'm heading in life. I'm 22 about to finish my bachelor in electrical engineering at University in Central Europe. I feel like I'm not living the life i should life. I have pretty high standards for me, others and my life too and theese aren't met. I have been depressed sereval times during the last few years but i managed to move on. Lateley I'm feeling like I lost enegry, hate going to work or school I want to travel, expericence the world meet girls and have fun. I don't want to sit in a cubicle staring to computer and count my years to death. School is dead boring, i get the A-s but i feel like I'm losing my time here. I have been saying this shit for years from high school, but everyone seems to be okay with a life like this. It feelsl like im a madman in madhouse. After experiencing apprenticeships for 1-2 years in companies in wich I could work after graduation I don't feel like I want this. It takes so much time to study and what I get is nothing special. I will be noone when I graduate ready for dead boring job. I dont know what should I do. I just signed for a week of rock climbing course to freshen my head.
People around me are like they go the safe route. Im very ambitions and beeing around people who dont care just drags
me down. I cannot find any likeminded people like myself. Im social pesron (well I like solitude too and if i cannot get people convinced I go alone) and I like connecting and meeting new people. But I don't know where to look. I have many friends but it's always like a near miss at best. I wolud like to get a crew or to find people that would motivate me on my journey or even show me the way. Be it girls, finance, career.
I had always struggled with girls, that why I' here. I was really shy around girls, esecially when i liked them. I felt intimidated. I had crush on a classmate during high school, but I never asked her out. But I think she knew. Once I was even confronted by friend to her that i liked her before her, but even then I didn't confess. I had liked only the most gorgeous girls and didn't care about others. Add this to my shyness and it's easy to see that I was virgin until 21.I wanted to go out, but my friends were even more lame than me. Throug my high school I was going out with my female friends group (they were 5-6s), but wasn't interrsted dating them. It was so safe we were going only to restaurant. Until they found boyfriends, when it tore down. Beeing a smart person I acquired some books on getting girls, lifestyle, how to be alpha etc. you know it. Somehow i got the impression that if I made myself look cool, girls would fall into my lap. Well I got cooler, but girls didn't thow themselves to me (unexpectedly![:lol:]( ":lol:")
). Lots of hot girls were around the school. But I didn't find a suitable friend for talking to girls and hitting the clubs. Once out of sheer frustration I went alone, but it was nothing special. Then I went to college. I tought there I would finally find cool dudes to go out with and hit on girls (wich I did to some extent) some of the dormitory parties were memorable, made out with some grls, but I still couldn't f-close. Well I finally lost it to a girl from online dating, on the first date. When she arrived I wanted to run away, cause she wasn't as lean as I would like (yet she looked cute on the pictures), but I wanted to talk to her at least. Well after three hours and 5 glasses of wine I was fucking her at my room. I went with her couple more times to get som exp, but I wanted more (a hotter girl) so I ended it. I looked trough the friends I know at dormitory and weeded the lame ones, then managed to get a group of three of us to go out and talk to girls at local bar. We got some numbers, went out sometimes with them but for me I didnt get anything serious from this. I find online dating rather difficult, you invest so mouch energy talking to a girl you don't even know you like only to either: a) flake on you, b) you end up not liking her. Well I don't know where to invest enegry to get some results.
Well I didn't expect to write so much. But it just poured out of me. You see I fight at multiple battlegrounds. Well I would like to get some independent advice form you guys.
People around me are like they go the safe route. Im very ambitions and beeing around people who dont care just drags
me down. I cannot find any likeminded people like myself. Im social pesron (well I like solitude too and if i cannot get people convinced I go alone) and I like connecting and meeting new people. But I don't know where to look. I have many friends but it's always like a near miss at best. I wolud like to get a crew or to find people that would motivate me on my journey or even show me the way. Be it girls, finance, career.
I had always struggled with girls, that why I' here. I was really shy around girls, esecially when i liked them. I felt intimidated. I had crush on a classmate during high school, but I never asked her out. But I think she knew. Once I was even confronted by friend to her that i liked her before her, but even then I didn't confess. I had liked only the most gorgeous girls and didn't care about others. Add this to my shyness and it's easy to see that I was virgin until 21.I wanted to go out, but my friends were even more lame than me. Throug my high school I was going out with my female friends group (they were 5-6s), but wasn't interrsted dating them. It was so safe we were going only to restaurant. Until they found boyfriends, when it tore down. Beeing a smart person I acquired some books on getting girls, lifestyle, how to be alpha etc. you know it. Somehow i got the impression that if I made myself look cool, girls would fall into my lap. Well I got cooler, but girls didn't thow themselves to me (unexpectedly
). Lots of hot girls were around the school. But I didn't find a suitable friend for talking to girls and hitting the clubs. Once out of sheer frustration I went alone, but it was nothing special. Then I went to college. I tought there I would finally find cool dudes to go out with and hit on girls (wich I did to some extent) some of the dormitory parties were memorable, made out with some grls, but I still couldn't f-close. Well I finally lost it to a girl from online dating, on the first date. When she arrived I wanted to run away, cause she wasn't as lean as I would like (yet she looked cute on the pictures), but I wanted to talk to her at least. Well after three hours and 5 glasses of wine I was fucking her at my room. I went with her couple more times to get som exp, but I wanted more (a hotter girl) so I ended it. I looked trough the friends I know at dormitory and weeded the lame ones, then managed to get a group of three of us to go out and talk to girls at local bar. We got some numbers, went out sometimes with them but for me I didnt get anything serious from this. I find online dating rather difficult, you invest so mouch energy talking to a girl you don't even know you like only to either: a) flake on you, b) you end up not liking her. Well I don't know where to invest enegry to get some results.Well I didn't expect to write so much. But it just poured out of me. You see I fight at multiple battlegrounds. Well I would like to get some independent advice form you guys.