Reporting in my 8 day of the approach anxiety (I have not been keeping a log but I think writting now and then would help me)
Today I took my dog for a long walk and I did use this as an opportinity to do the drill, I kinda used my dog as emotional support but im sure I could have done it without him, The walk started from 7pm to 10pm. When it started the sun was still up, it was almost dawn but there where some remant light, people where always responsive with a smile and helpfull but as the day was ending I noticed women where more hesitant to help me. When I asked for the time and direction and also if they liked a restaurant (very few did) most would be serious, surprised and always they would put the "what the fuck" look everytime I left. At first this kinda discouraged me but after a while I didnt care anymore and just kept doing the drill.
Now that im sitting writting this im wondering why during light hours there was more copperation and at night it almost disappeared, im not sure if cortisol or instinct has to do anything with this but is intereseting non the less. Or probably my looks where not good enough. Anyway it feels good writting this down and would appreciate if you could judge my look.
Today I took my dog for a long walk and I did use this as an opportinity to do the drill, I kinda used my dog as emotional support but im sure I could have done it without him, The walk started from 7pm to 10pm. When it started the sun was still up, it was almost dawn but there where some remant light, people where always responsive with a smile and helpfull but as the day was ending I noticed women where more hesitant to help me. When I asked for the time and direction and also if they liked a restaurant (very few did) most would be serious, surprised and always they would put the "what the fuck" look everytime I left. At first this kinda discouraged me but after a while I didnt care anymore and just kept doing the drill.
Now that im sitting writting this im wondering why during light hours there was more copperation and at night it almost disappeared, im not sure if cortisol or instinct has to do anything with this but is intereseting non the less. Or probably my looks where not good enough. Anyway it feels good writting this down and would appreciate if you could judge my look.