So I'm in my final year of High School and I feel like I've underachieved for the large part of it. It lasted 4 years and that's exactly how long it took me to pull myself together (get in shape, fix my style, start rocking my sport, get confident, get my hygine on point and most of all get a lot of social freedom). Now, as you may imagine this got a lot of girls interested in me (not to gloat or sound cocky, just telling you the story how it is), even the ones that were there before but didn't look at me in this way. Plus I wasn't too blind to see this, I quickly became aware that I am a tall, good looking, in shape guy with style (you get how this impacted my confidance). I only started to come out of shell at around the second semester of 3rd year of High School and started talking to girls, trying to get into dating and so on... (cuz I had next to no experiance with girls whats so ever). Now, I don't necessarly think I'm "the best looking guy in the history", but I think (based off of looking at guys that these so called "top notch girls", or at least "upper tier girls" are usually seen with) I look above avrage. These guys are nothing special (avrage or below looking), but they are much cooler than me from a social standpoint because I was a nobody for the majority of my time in High School, as they were considered the popular kids of the school or something along those lines. So, I got shut down by a few of those better looking girls and I like to think it is because I was pretty much a nobody trying to pick up girls over Instagram and such (ofcourse I might be wrong, maybe they just weren't attracted to me or I'm flat out ugly to them, or I don't have the game to pull the likes of them...who knows). This was a reacurring situation and soon became a pattern, so I had to lower my standards a bit and sure enough, I had more sucsess. Inevitably, i got myself a girlfriend that I was very happy with for about 6 months now. I switched to independant study (to pursue my sports dreams) and don't go to school with my old classmates anymore, instead I come to school once a month to turn in my assignments and pick up new ones etc. As I've improved myself even more over the year, I've noticed that more and more girls of that "top tier' are getting interested in me. Now, I love my girl so much...amazing person, beautiful, all that. But, bottom line I don't see myself with this person long term (not because she has some flaws i can't get around, but because I feel like I could do better and more for myself). I mean, she's the only girlfriend I ever had and I just turned 18...is it wrong that I feel this way? I feel like i'm missing out on so many girls right now, even tho we've not been together too long. Has anyone ever been in a place like this, please share your expiriance. But yeah, I think I might wanna try a few more girls before I settle down...especially now in these years, I don't wanna waste them. Anyways, I tried to break up with her once...I was too sad about it, got right back together with her the next day. Now the relationship is basicly her being overly attached and getting really paranoid (like I'm gonna leave her or something, or that I'm cheating on her).
So Chris, my question to you is (if you see this, pray to God you do): Should I stay with her? (cuz I really do care for this girl, she loves me more than anything...part of the reason I got back together with her is because she was so devistated about it) or is it necessary for me to leave her to move forward with my "girl chasing desires", and not regret this part of my life (lol that sounded so retarded, but yeah hope I got my point across)
luv ya Chris, *brohug*
So Chris, my question to you is (if you see this, pray to God you do): Should I stay with her? (cuz I really do care for this girl, she loves me more than anything...part of the reason I got back together with her is because she was so devistated about it) or is it necessary for me to leave her to move forward with my "girl chasing desires", and not regret this part of my life (lol that sounded so retarded, but yeah hope I got my point across)
luv ya Chris, *brohug*