I am 22 years old and recently got into a relationship a few months back. I met this girl at the beginning of the year. I'm in college and this is the first girl I have ever been with. My girlfriend is super friendly, a real social butterfly. Literally everyone likes her. I on the other hand have always had trouble socializing, and while i've made major improvements since I've been at university I would say I'm definitely below average when it comes to simple conversation and making friends.
My problem is I can't focus on other shit because of her. Not because she's always hitting me up, but because she's always on my mind. I get really pissed off too when she tells me how much fun she's having with her friends and what not; it's because i'm insecure. I fucking hate it. I wish I wasn't like this but it eats at me 24 hours a day. I wake up in the middle of the night stressing about what she's doing and if I'm doing enough, etc.
I can't study because my mind can't focus, I sometimes sit in my chair for long periods of time just thinking about our relationship. When she's with her coworkers I get fucking jealous. For example, tonight she told me the waiter at the restaurant she was at with her coworker thought that they were a couple. I fucking felt like yelling and punching the wall. And when she tells me funny stories of her with friends or with coworkers I think to myself "Could I have made her laugh like that?". I try my best not to show it but deep down I'm fucking pissed. I don't know what to do. It can't be normal to feel like this. When I'm with her I'm happy and things are great, but when I'm not I'm a mess. I literally was crying the other day because I was so stressed out. Tonight I was fucking raging with anger.
At times I really feel like breaking up with her because I'm just a mess. I really like her though, I love her. It just kills me inside.
My problem is I can't focus on other shit because of her. Not because she's always hitting me up, but because she's always on my mind. I get really pissed off too when she tells me how much fun she's having with her friends and what not; it's because i'm insecure. I fucking hate it. I wish I wasn't like this but it eats at me 24 hours a day. I wake up in the middle of the night stressing about what she's doing and if I'm doing enough, etc.
I can't study because my mind can't focus, I sometimes sit in my chair for long periods of time just thinking about our relationship. When she's with her coworkers I get fucking jealous. For example, tonight she told me the waiter at the restaurant she was at with her coworker thought that they were a couple. I fucking felt like yelling and punching the wall. And when she tells me funny stories of her with friends or with coworkers I think to myself "Could I have made her laugh like that?". I try my best not to show it but deep down I'm fucking pissed. I don't know what to do. It can't be normal to feel like this. When I'm with her I'm happy and things are great, but when I'm not I'm a mess. I literally was crying the other day because I was so stressed out. Tonight I was fucking raging with anger.
At times I really feel like breaking up with her because I'm just a mess. I really like her though, I love her. It just kills me inside.