Hello guys, my story is this;
Hi, I'm a guy who is almost 22 years old and i feel like a loser most of the time of the day. I dont know if its anxiey or just myself feel like a akward and loser, but when i talk to people I do not know well, especially the people of the other sex i get anxiety.
When I ride the subway i usually buries my face in my smartphone, and even if i dont i still feel worthless, like looking at people makes me scared they will judge me or scream at me or something. When I walk around in town, I try to keep my gaze high and not to look down, I try to look at people when I pass them, but i often quickly removes my head when they look back.
The worst thing about all this is that when I was in high school, I was one of the most popular guys in school (mostly because my social skills). I lost my virginty some days after i turned 13 years old (crazy i know) , with the hottest girl in school by that time. I had lots of friends and was able to freely flirt with hot girls. Then I became Head Over Heels in a girl ( like really crazy in love), but did not even dare ask what she thought of me (I was used to the girls got in touch with me.) Eventually, she got another guy and I was very sad and was depressed for almost a year. And that was when it happened, I suddenly felt worthless, thought it was hard to talk to people etc, though I was king of all that before! Feels like I was on top and fell stick right down the bottom where I am now.
This was six years ago, and I am still kinda incapable of talking to girls, and even the guys I do not know well. I do not like attention, and often try to remove glances from me. I dont know if i am depressed anymore but i do know i am, socially handicapped
What should I do? I want to be able to talk and look relaxed at people without feeling anxiety or such a fucking worthless guy (why the fuck dock think myself as worthless?!)
I really like this forum and think much of it is good reading. Do you think the aa program will do wonders for me? Should i go to therapy?
I really hope someone can give me any advice
Sorry for bad english![:)]( ":)")
Hi, I'm a guy who is almost 22 years old and i feel like a loser most of the time of the day. I dont know if its anxiey or just myself feel like a akward and loser, but when i talk to people I do not know well, especially the people of the other sex i get anxiety.
When I ride the subway i usually buries my face in my smartphone, and even if i dont i still feel worthless, like looking at people makes me scared they will judge me or scream at me or something. When I walk around in town, I try to keep my gaze high and not to look down, I try to look at people when I pass them, but i often quickly removes my head when they look back.
The worst thing about all this is that when I was in high school, I was one of the most popular guys in school (mostly because my social skills). I lost my virginty some days after i turned 13 years old (crazy i know) , with the hottest girl in school by that time. I had lots of friends and was able to freely flirt with hot girls. Then I became Head Over Heels in a girl ( like really crazy in love), but did not even dare ask what she thought of me (I was used to the girls got in touch with me.) Eventually, she got another guy and I was very sad and was depressed for almost a year. And that was when it happened, I suddenly felt worthless, thought it was hard to talk to people etc, though I was king of all that before! Feels like I was on top and fell stick right down the bottom where I am now.
This was six years ago, and I am still kinda incapable of talking to girls, and even the guys I do not know well. I do not like attention, and often try to remove glances from me. I dont know if i am depressed anymore but i do know i am, socially handicapped
What should I do? I want to be able to talk and look relaxed at people without feeling anxiety or such a fucking worthless guy (why the fuck dock think myself as worthless?!)
I really like this forum and think much of it is good reading. Do you think the aa program will do wonders for me? Should i go to therapy?
I really hope someone can give me any advice
Sorry for bad english
