I hope this time to commit to this program and be serious about it. I've already done the first 6 days of drills and it was just brought to my attention by a forum mod that I had already skipped a few days, and that I'm not taking this seriously. And I like to think that he's right - if I didn't post an AA log, I wouldn't be held accountable if I just magically stopped doing drills for a few days, cause there would be no proof I started in the first place. I've been keeping track of what's been going on in an excel document, so I'll just copy that here once I'm done with the introduction.
I was introduced to the GLL community a couple of years ago and have always been a pretty big fan of the mindset you guys advocate - I've never had any issues or conflict of opinion with what's voiced here, it's all real shit.
I've been brought back to GLL because of the cancerous 2-year relationship I just exited - got cheated on - made fun of cause her new boyfriend's dick was so much bigger than mine, along with a lot of nasty and vicious shit that no human being should never hear. Was a pretty stable relationship too - friends always looked up to us as "couple goals" or whatever you'd like to call it. However that was before her mind started to waver, I became more needy, and eventually led her to just leaving me for some other guy she had been seeing at the time. These thoughts keep recurring in my head pretty much every day or every other day, and I know that if I don't fix my shit soon, it will quite literally eat me alive and drive me to absolute insanity (as if it hasn't already).
As hard as it is to accept, I will not focus on getting laid for the next 2-3 months, my main focus is to beat approach anxiety. I will not take these drills and turn them into half-assed sloppy approaches, and I'll create myself a Tinder profile so that I've got a steady source of dates to keep myself sane while following the program. And now that there's documented evidence that I've been here and committed to the program, I'll do everything in my power to see it through to the end (or at least day 46, where Chris mentions that's when you can start doing real approaches).
I was introduced to the GLL community a couple of years ago and have always been a pretty big fan of the mindset you guys advocate - I've never had any issues or conflict of opinion with what's voiced here, it's all real shit.
I've been brought back to GLL because of the cancerous 2-year relationship I just exited - got cheated on - made fun of cause her new boyfriend's dick was so much bigger than mine, along with a lot of nasty and vicious shit that no human being should never hear. Was a pretty stable relationship too - friends always looked up to us as "couple goals" or whatever you'd like to call it. However that was before her mind started to waver, I became more needy, and eventually led her to just leaving me for some other guy she had been seeing at the time. These thoughts keep recurring in my head pretty much every day or every other day, and I know that if I don't fix my shit soon, it will quite literally eat me alive and drive me to absolute insanity (as if it hasn't already).
As hard as it is to accept, I will not focus on getting laid for the next 2-3 months, my main focus is to beat approach anxiety. I will not take these drills and turn them into half-assed sloppy approaches, and I'll create myself a Tinder profile so that I've got a steady source of dates to keep myself sane while following the program. And now that there's documented evidence that I've been here and committed to the program, I'll do everything in my power to see it through to the end (or at least day 46, where Chris mentions that's when you can start doing real approaches).