So it's been a couple of years since I was last involved with this community and boy did I pay for it. Got myself a girlfriend when I was 19 and only found out last month that she was a chronic liar and cheating whore. The worst part is I quit the AA program a few days after I started because I had met her two years ago, seemed things were pretty serious and we were pretty damn committed to each other, unfortunately that didn't end up working out.
So this time I'm back and would like to make the effort to carry through the entire program, as opposed to stopping a few days in and justifying skipping the days I couldn't do with some lame excuse, little did I realize that they were the foundation for the harder days that are yet to come.
I just came back from attempting to do the drills from day 10, and honestly, for the past few days, my mind just hasn't been all there. Still thinking a lot about the ex, and that fucks with my head a ton while doing these drills, not to mention I saw her sister today walking in the mall, so that doesn't help.
Anyway I've noticed a pattern recently, ever since about the day 7 drills - the first few interactions will always go well for me, I still struggle a lot with "getting in there", and sometimes I just bitch out and don't do it. Anyway, I'm able to survive the first 6-8 interactions, but after that, I kinda just burn out and lose the will to continue through the next 7-9. Anyone ever experience a similar burnout? Like you just get fed up?
Also may as well voice this thought while I'm here, I perform all of these drills on a university campus, and I always feel like a complete idiot approaching one girl, asking for the time, and less than a minute later, walking up to another girl and having a similar interaction - as if the one I just spoke to is going to approach me and call me out on it or something.
I'm going to have to end up repeating day 10 since I was only able to get in 5 interactions before I just lost all will to continue and left. Thing is, I know there are days where the amount of girls I'll need to approach will increase more and more - if I can barely survive 15 interactions (by the way when I was doing day 9, I barely scraped by and forced myself to do the last few, and felt like crap while doing them) how does one survive when doing it to 20/25/30/35/40 girls per day? I'm kinda just hoping this program gives me the stamina to carry through with this many approaches per day, cause right now, 15-20 seems ridiculously difficult, meanwhile 30-40 seems absolutely impossible.
Anyway long story short, if you've got some stuff to say that may help fix my shit, it would definitely help out. And if you encounter similar burnouts, how do you sarge through them?
So this time I'm back and would like to make the effort to carry through the entire program, as opposed to stopping a few days in and justifying skipping the days I couldn't do with some lame excuse, little did I realize that they were the foundation for the harder days that are yet to come.
I just came back from attempting to do the drills from day 10, and honestly, for the past few days, my mind just hasn't been all there. Still thinking a lot about the ex, and that fucks with my head a ton while doing these drills, not to mention I saw her sister today walking in the mall, so that doesn't help.
Anyway I've noticed a pattern recently, ever since about the day 7 drills - the first few interactions will always go well for me, I still struggle a lot with "getting in there", and sometimes I just bitch out and don't do it. Anyway, I'm able to survive the first 6-8 interactions, but after that, I kinda just burn out and lose the will to continue through the next 7-9. Anyone ever experience a similar burnout? Like you just get fed up?
Also may as well voice this thought while I'm here, I perform all of these drills on a university campus, and I always feel like a complete idiot approaching one girl, asking for the time, and less than a minute later, walking up to another girl and having a similar interaction - as if the one I just spoke to is going to approach me and call me out on it or something.
I'm going to have to end up repeating day 10 since I was only able to get in 5 interactions before I just lost all will to continue and left. Thing is, I know there are days where the amount of girls I'll need to approach will increase more and more - if I can barely survive 15 interactions (by the way when I was doing day 9, I barely scraped by and forced myself to do the last few, and felt like crap while doing them) how does one survive when doing it to 20/25/30/35/40 girls per day? I'm kinda just hoping this program gives me the stamina to carry through with this many approaches per day, cause right now, 15-20 seems ridiculously difficult, meanwhile 30-40 seems absolutely impossible.
Anyway long story short, if you've got some stuff to say that may help fix my shit, it would definitely help out. And if you encounter similar burnouts, how do you sarge through them?