Hello to anyone reading this. I would say that for 20+ years of my life I've suffered from moderately severe social anxiety and shyness. Though I've always wanted pussy I've never been lucky enough to stumble into some (I've gotten pretty close a couple times, just lost wood right before penetration probably cuz they were too fat/unattractive). In high school I was fascinated with David DeAngelo/Mystery/RSD and studied it vigorously to no avail. At 19 I had a random bipolar manic episode and had to withdraw from academia. Since then I've been in and out of hospitals, in and out of a depression/mania cycle, and going to a lot of therapy(which hasn't helped me get pussy), for the past 9 years. I don't mean to bum anyone out, just giving a little backstory and my circumstances.
These days I'm feeling better, started going to the gym (went from 200 --> 170 in 5 months), stable as far as the Bipolar goes. Still have Social Anxiety but not as bad as before. Still want ass. I think I'm ready in my life to do this now, though I am highly nervous.
Today I'm starting Day one of the AA program and listening to the first tape was a great reminder of why I'm here to begin with as I often get distracted with other bullshit. My goal is to lose my virginity before my next birthday (April). And, right here and now, I also make that my #1 priority.
These days I'm feeling better, started going to the gym (went from 200 --> 170 in 5 months), stable as far as the Bipolar goes. Still have Social Anxiety but not as bad as before. Still want ass. I think I'm ready in my life to do this now, though I am highly nervous.
Today I'm starting Day one of the AA program and listening to the first tape was a great reminder of why I'm here to begin with as I often get distracted with other bullshit. My goal is to lose my virginity before my next birthday (April). And, right here and now, I also make that my #1 priority.