I have gotten addicted to sleep.
Inadvertently I will stay up all night and sleep in the morning, then wake up in the late afternoon, sometimes right before work.
I have so much that needs to be accomplished, but I find myself unable to be obligated to those things. I just keep sleeping, sometimes for 12-13 hours straight, and turn off all the alarms in my sleep.
I have multiple businesses I need to run, these great ideas that need to be implemented, yet I can't even get out of bed in the morning.
All day my mind is only on sex, and I am unable to focus at night when the sexual energy hits its peak. It's so bad sometimes I am unable to sleep because I am so horny.
I find my subconscious continuing to lead me to read Chris' articles from Goodlookingloser, especially the ones on Approach Anxiety and GUILT at basing a lifestyle around women.
For a while I was obsessed purely with Bold and Determined and working, but I noticed that my obsession ended when my ex moved out of state and another event happened that put the brakes on my business.
Though I've tried to remain mindful and aware of depression and not fall into bad habits, I find myself in a difficult battle with sleep.
I could just stay up all night, as I have done in the past, but my sleep addiction is so powerful I can barely function without it.
Things could be much worse. I could have a drug addiction or porn addiction, or be flat broke.
But as it stands I am WASTING MY LIFE AWAY and I cannot give myself permission to hit on girls.
Every day is like a middle ground of uncertainty, and I feel a constant nagging to return to business and working, like an opportunity that may go away.
But I've already missed a few major opportunities in my business because of this, and I am tempted to just put all my money and career goals on hold to focus purely on sex.
I just feel incredibly stupid doing this, since I have so much ability and I'm in my prime.
But ALL DAY EVERY DAY no matter what I seem to accomplish, I feel empty and am distracted by "when I'm going to hit on the next girl."
At work it's all I can think about all day; when the next opportunity will arrive. And of course, when it does 9/10 she'll just walk away or not be available anyway, and if I only hit on 1 or, worse, 0 girls then I feel like a total failure.
THIS CYCLE HAS BEEN HAPPENING MY WHOLE LIFE.
Work hard --> Get frustrated --> Hit on some girls --> Get even more frustrated --> Quit job --> Hit on girls fulltime --> Something bad happens or don't get laid --> Masturbate --> Get depressed --> Sleep --> Get a new job
And the cycle starts all over again.
I cannot live my life in this limbo and I cannot continue without getting laid. It is just something I NEED to my very core and I have to admit that. Everyone and their dog have tried to talk me out of it, and for a while I was able to continue without it, but that is only because I already had a girl or two in the pipeline and was able to subdue myself with that, but the constant nagging feeling that I was wasting my time continued to creep back.
I cannot take myself seriously as a professional or a man. I am told how skilled I am and validated on a daily basis, but until my reality reflects a hyper sex life with multiple fuck buddies and women who want me to come over in the middle of the night, I cannot sleep, I cannot work, I cannot focus.
Some men put all their frustration into work and hope the money gets them girls, on PAPER that sounds great and I tried it for a long time but I endlessly sabotage myself and feel like such a sham.
Without major success with women I don't feel qualified to teach anybody anything or start a business.
All I am reminded of is this crucial chunk of my life that is missing. If I can't even accomplish that, how can I run a business?
People say getting laid is so easy but it's NOT. I am such an angry man, there is no outlet for me. I am never happy, I am never satisfied with anyone, I hate the majority of people.
It doesn't matter how much people look up to me or praise me or like me, I'm sick of it all.
I'm a fucking sham. I'm a fucking loser until I prove my worth in the sexual marketplace.
If women won't fuck me then I'm NOT really that valuable, am I?
Having women want to fuck you is a major sign of status, without it I am just spinning my wheels and a pretender.
I know a lot, I have done a lot, I am strong, but this massive insecurity MUST BE RESOLVED.
I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS ANYMORE. I NEED TO FUCKING FIX THIS.
"How to Stop Feeling Guilty for Chasing Girls When You Have No Money" is an article just written by Chris. It's laughable.
How in the fuck can I focus on women without money?
But how can I make money while only being able to focus on women?
This is fucking tearing my apart. The stress and the agony are beating me down, I have a hard time getting out of bed or going out. When I finally get out, I'll hit on girls but I am constantly reminded by how I don't have enough money and how much of a "loser" I am.
Then when I'm working and doing business stuff, I feel better about myself, but there is still a huge nagging doubt in my head and I am unable to concentrate for long because I am so fucking horny.
All I see are the people going out every weekend, all those people in bars with the current clothing drinking and fucking around, while I'm at home working.
It just feels like such a copout.
HAHA LOOK AT ME PRETENDER BUSINESS MAN OVER HERE WHO CAN'T EVEN GET LAID IN A FUCKING BAR.
This is bad publicity, but it's as honest as I can be. I just don't know how to handle this anymore.
Inadvertently I will stay up all night and sleep in the morning, then wake up in the late afternoon, sometimes right before work.
I have so much that needs to be accomplished, but I find myself unable to be obligated to those things. I just keep sleeping, sometimes for 12-13 hours straight, and turn off all the alarms in my sleep.
I have multiple businesses I need to run, these great ideas that need to be implemented, yet I can't even get out of bed in the morning.
All day my mind is only on sex, and I am unable to focus at night when the sexual energy hits its peak. It's so bad sometimes I am unable to sleep because I am so horny.
I find my subconscious continuing to lead me to read Chris' articles from Goodlookingloser, especially the ones on Approach Anxiety and GUILT at basing a lifestyle around women.
For a while I was obsessed purely with Bold and Determined and working, but I noticed that my obsession ended when my ex moved out of state and another event happened that put the brakes on my business.
Though I've tried to remain mindful and aware of depression and not fall into bad habits, I find myself in a difficult battle with sleep.
I could just stay up all night, as I have done in the past, but my sleep addiction is so powerful I can barely function without it.
Things could be much worse. I could have a drug addiction or porn addiction, or be flat broke.
But as it stands I am WASTING MY LIFE AWAY and I cannot give myself permission to hit on girls.
Every day is like a middle ground of uncertainty, and I feel a constant nagging to return to business and working, like an opportunity that may go away.
But I've already missed a few major opportunities in my business because of this, and I am tempted to just put all my money and career goals on hold to focus purely on sex.
I just feel incredibly stupid doing this, since I have so much ability and I'm in my prime.
But ALL DAY EVERY DAY no matter what I seem to accomplish, I feel empty and am distracted by "when I'm going to hit on the next girl."
At work it's all I can think about all day; when the next opportunity will arrive. And of course, when it does 9/10 she'll just walk away or not be available anyway, and if I only hit on 1 or, worse, 0 girls then I feel like a total failure.
THIS CYCLE HAS BEEN HAPPENING MY WHOLE LIFE.
Work hard --> Get frustrated --> Hit on some girls --> Get even more frustrated --> Quit job --> Hit on girls fulltime --> Something bad happens or don't get laid --> Masturbate --> Get depressed --> Sleep --> Get a new job
And the cycle starts all over again.
I cannot live my life in this limbo and I cannot continue without getting laid. It is just something I NEED to my very core and I have to admit that. Everyone and their dog have tried to talk me out of it, and for a while I was able to continue without it, but that is only because I already had a girl or two in the pipeline and was able to subdue myself with that, but the constant nagging feeling that I was wasting my time continued to creep back.
I cannot take myself seriously as a professional or a man. I am told how skilled I am and validated on a daily basis, but until my reality reflects a hyper sex life with multiple fuck buddies and women who want me to come over in the middle of the night, I cannot sleep, I cannot work, I cannot focus.
Some men put all their frustration into work and hope the money gets them girls, on PAPER that sounds great and I tried it for a long time but I endlessly sabotage myself and feel like such a sham.
Without major success with women I don't feel qualified to teach anybody anything or start a business.
All I am reminded of is this crucial chunk of my life that is missing. If I can't even accomplish that, how can I run a business?
People say getting laid is so easy but it's NOT. I am such an angry man, there is no outlet for me. I am never happy, I am never satisfied with anyone, I hate the majority of people.
It doesn't matter how much people look up to me or praise me or like me, I'm sick of it all.
I'm a fucking sham. I'm a fucking loser until I prove my worth in the sexual marketplace.
If women won't fuck me then I'm NOT really that valuable, am I?
Having women want to fuck you is a major sign of status, without it I am just spinning my wheels and a pretender.
I know a lot, I have done a lot, I am strong, but this massive insecurity MUST BE RESOLVED.
I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS ANYMORE. I NEED TO FUCKING FIX THIS.
"How to Stop Feeling Guilty for Chasing Girls When You Have No Money" is an article just written by Chris. It's laughable.
How in the fuck can I focus on women without money?
But how can I make money while only being able to focus on women?
This is fucking tearing my apart. The stress and the agony are beating me down, I have a hard time getting out of bed or going out. When I finally get out, I'll hit on girls but I am constantly reminded by how I don't have enough money and how much of a "loser" I am.
Then when I'm working and doing business stuff, I feel better about myself, but there is still a huge nagging doubt in my head and I am unable to concentrate for long because I am so fucking horny.
All I see are the people going out every weekend, all those people in bars with the current clothing drinking and fucking around, while I'm at home working.
It just feels like such a copout.
HAHA LOOK AT ME PRETENDER BUSINESS MAN OVER HERE WHO CAN'T EVEN GET LAID IN A FUCKING BAR.
This is bad publicity, but it's as honest as I can be. I just don't know how to handle this anymore.