Hey guys,
I'm Kevin and I just turned 20. I was born and raised in Toronto and go to college here. My current goal is to just get laid. Being the shortest in my class growing up, I've always been insecure about my height. Even today, I only stand at 5'4. I also used to be insecure about my looks. Things turned around a bit in high school when I got into a relationship with a pretty blonde (I'm Asian) who happened to be taller. We got a lot of weird looks lol. I was the biggest pussy in that relationship and it took us 5 months to kiss. Slowly but surely though, we got further and further and eventually we were fucking pretty often. That relationship lasted around 3 years and gave me a great confidence boost along with sexual experience. I also started taking diet and lifting seriously in that period, when I was 16. That lasted until she cheated on me, which at the time affected me pretty badly. Felt real shitty and didn't try to get with girls for nearly a year. When I did start to try, I realized that I was back to square one. A total pussy with girls. I didn't realize this until just recently, the extent of my inexperience. As a result, I've been in a 2+ year dry spell. I have had a decent amount of drunk make outs and close calls but nothing further than that.
I've been following GLL for the past 1.5 years and have applied many of the principles on the site. However, I have not dedicated myself fully to everything. I've been lifting for over three years, tracking macros from the start. My style is pretty good and I also use height insoles. Basically, I put in a lot of effort in to myself. I would say that I have most of the fundamentals down except for social freedom. I realized this yesterday for me when I went on my first date ever. I realized I had no killer instinct whatsoever. It was my first time trying to make a move on a girl in a sober state and I can say it was definitely sobering - I was pretty fucking nervous and the girl noticed too. Pussied out on kissing her, touched her minimally. Though I'm disappointed in myself, I'm proud at the same time and can't wait for that kind of excitement again. We talked for 2 hours and it was kind of fun I guess.![:unsure:]( ":unsure:")
Approach anxiety is also a problem for me, as I've never cold approached a girl sober. Right now, I'm going to be starting the AA program. It's actually the reason I'm making this thread. I already have Tinder, POF and OKCupid and am working on arranging as my dates as I can. I'm also working on getting my body fat a bit lower, till I get to 8%. Being a very goal oriented and disciplined person, I know anything is possible with serious effort. So, it's about fucking time!
I'm Kevin and I just turned 20. I was born and raised in Toronto and go to college here. My current goal is to just get laid. Being the shortest in my class growing up, I've always been insecure about my height. Even today, I only stand at 5'4. I also used to be insecure about my looks. Things turned around a bit in high school when I got into a relationship with a pretty blonde (I'm Asian) who happened to be taller. We got a lot of weird looks lol. I was the biggest pussy in that relationship and it took us 5 months to kiss. Slowly but surely though, we got further and further and eventually we were fucking pretty often. That relationship lasted around 3 years and gave me a great confidence boost along with sexual experience. I also started taking diet and lifting seriously in that period, when I was 16. That lasted until she cheated on me, which at the time affected me pretty badly. Felt real shitty and didn't try to get with girls for nearly a year. When I did start to try, I realized that I was back to square one. A total pussy with girls. I didn't realize this until just recently, the extent of my inexperience. As a result, I've been in a 2+ year dry spell. I have had a decent amount of drunk make outs and close calls but nothing further than that.
I've been following GLL for the past 1.5 years and have applied many of the principles on the site. However, I have not dedicated myself fully to everything. I've been lifting for over three years, tracking macros from the start. My style is pretty good and I also use height insoles. Basically, I put in a lot of effort in to myself. I would say that I have most of the fundamentals down except for social freedom. I realized this yesterday for me when I went on my first date ever. I realized I had no killer instinct whatsoever. It was my first time trying to make a move on a girl in a sober state and I can say it was definitely sobering - I was pretty fucking nervous and the girl noticed too. Pussied out on kissing her, touched her minimally. Though I'm disappointed in myself, I'm proud at the same time and can't wait for that kind of excitement again. We talked for 2 hours and it was kind of fun I guess.
Approach anxiety is also a problem for me, as I've never cold approached a girl sober. Right now, I'm going to be starting the AA program. It's actually the reason I'm making this thread. I already have Tinder, POF and OKCupid and am working on arranging as my dates as I can. I'm also working on getting my body fat a bit lower, till I get to 8%. Being a very goal oriented and disciplined person, I know anything is possible with serious effort. So, it's about fucking time!